My favorite song of the moment is "Hey, Soul Sister" and it's moves me to reach out and SHOUT OUT to all my soul sisters (and brothers) out there! But is there really an "out there"? Maybe....or not. If it's all vibrating light particles then I'm experience a really miraculous show where there seems to be a very realistic epic drama unfolding and I'm the main character. That's what enlightenment does to you. It turns you "outside in" when all my life I've been outwardly focused thinking and feeling that there is a material world outside of what I thought was "me". Then all the layers and layers of me slowly dissolved away which each exquisite sensation of the electric aliveness emanating from my heart. Visceral experiences that transcend any other experience I've ever had. It's beyond description. Yet my mind is fully alert and observing each moment and yes, attempting to record and understand what is happening. Each moment is like a flickering flame of consciousness moving between "me" and "no-me" which is pure awareness. I come in and out of existence, engaged one minute, then floating away the next. It's like balance yet continuous flow. One moment I'm engrossed in the dream, and then awareness arises recognizing the active parts of "me" and switches back to this bliss, this profound peace. This switch is a momentary choice to let go of anything within me that keeps me from experience this incredible bliss. I am beginning to experience the body as a finely tuned vehicle that can navigate reality through emotions as part of the co-creative process. Mastering this process is my true purpose, and playing Blackjack is perhaps may or may not be relevant. It is relevant only as it allows me to employ the co-creative process, and not relevant if it distracts from the process. The engine that drives this process is letting go and surrendering to the present NOW moment. This means letting go of the entire backstory (the past) and what I think "should" happen next "considering" the past. The merry-go round of the mind spinning different variations of "what ifs" and "what could happen". And because we overly identify with our bodies, all this baggage I carry around is stored as suppressed dense energy which drains the body's energy over time.
Once I let go of the ego identification with the body and the fear of death, I was able to feel more energy flow into my body. The blocks and dense energy of fear can choke off energy flow. The energy raises the vibrations in the body and causes it to heal and reset from trapped trauma, illness, and dis-ease. The vibrations and energy movement feel so good and my cells are vibrating with joy!
It's the joy I want to share and transmit to all my soul sisters! What we heal in ourselves we release in the collective consciousness. Fear and self doubt are not our forever friends. They are only here for a moment and this too shall pass. Our bodies need our acceptance, love, and mercy. I am willing to look at the "me's" I've created to deal with negative judgments coming from all directions all my life. My energy drained as I created little "me's" each time I was judged or hurt by others. When I experience emotional trauma, I would start thinking there's something wrong with me. If I could be better, they wouldn't reject me. I must not be good enough. These thoughts trigger emotional energy and fear and sadness. Some of the "me's" were quite angry. Then to "cope" with the hurt of these emotions, I would create a version of "me" that had to prove to the world that I really was good enough. This "me" had to be lovable some how because I know that love is what we are, so I can not, at the level of awareness I had as a child, understand why others don't love me the way I love them. The more the "me" that wanted approval tried to get approval from others, the more of my energy it used up. Then the more rejection it got from people, the other "me" that was angry about being rejected got angrier which was a drain over time. Anger can be very toxic for the body. All this created a war within and I was not a peace within my body. So since I was a little child, the innate joy and bliss became denser and denser vibrations as I aged. I intuitive feel this caused my cancer and now I'm ready to regain my lost joy and bliss. Even if I die from cancer, I will die the way I came into the world.
Enough is enough! I'm not going to judge myself any longer. I want unconditional love, because these "me's" are the lost, hurt and wounded parts of me that deserve to be acknowledged, accepted, and hugged in the most heart felt way! I mean crazily radically hugging those little me's until they willingly join me in the bliss. Each one that joins (transmute back into pure light) opens up the pathways to energy more.
All the "bad" things that happen to me have been a spring board into deeper levels to SELF and now I'm ready to truly forgive and let go of all my hang ups about myself. Other's opinions and reaction to me are to going to influence me for the better no matter if it's negative or positive. I welcome interaction with life, but I'm no longer attached to outcomes. I'm still rooting for me. The real me under all the other "me's" crying out for the real me to awake up and hold them. And I'm going to express the love energy coming through me the best way I know how in each moment no matter the outcome. And with each new NOW moment I become more free to be the real me! This real me is LOVE, and I want to share my love with all my soul sisters and brothers. May peace, joy and bliss create your next moment and the next....
Monday, June 17, 2019
Friday, May 24, 2019
My Little Brother, My Hero
As I write these words tears flow. My youngest brother Khanh who is 47 (the last born of 6 siblings in our large family) is in the hospital on life support from a severe heart brain stroke. Doctors say he may die in a matter of days. An ongoing vigil of loving friends and family surround him with hopeful prayers. Why would the youngest of us be the first to pass away, leaving behind his 7 year old daughter and loving wife, is a question that the human mind can never get a satisfactory answer. So the best way I can answer this question is with no answer and just a story....
During my 2018 awakening I briefly mentioned having a vivid dream/vision in which I merged with a golden being of light that I call my I AM presence. There is more to this dream that I will mention now. Before this dream I had been going through massive energy purges and periods of heart openings and euphoria that eventually led to my breast cancer tumor disappearing. The night of the dream occurred in early November. I was in a state of spiritual ecstasy and sent out a prayer that I wanted to go higher and further. In the dream a huge golden being of light appeared before me. It placed in my right hand a glowing ball of pulsating light and transmitted to me that this represented my "world" and everything that I was attached to (friends, family, material possessions). The being instructed me to look closely at the pulsating ball in my hand. As I looked at it the ball slowly disappeared. The being telepathically said "You see, it's all illusion. To go further you must let it go, say goodbye, and merge with me." I felt a moment of conflict. My attachments, even though illusions, were very dear to my heart. I shed tears of sorrow as I said good bye to the dearest things of my world -- my husband Jeff and son Evan. I knew they would be OK without me even though it hurt me to not be with them. But I knew the being of light was where I belonged if I really wanted to go further on my journey.
At that moment of decision I peered into the being of light and saw the face of my brother Khanh. I was surprised that he was already in the being of light. I pondered what that meant and received a heart knowing that Khanh was really part of the over-soul that I belonged to and that he was already there because he (though youngest among the siblings) had already advanced on his journey where he accomplished this sacred merge, this enlightenment. Seeing his face in the light gave me courage to finally let go and merge into it even though it felt like I was truly dying. An indescribable feeling of bliss and peace overcame me as I became One with the light, One with Khanh.
Then I woke up from the dream and realized that I had not died. A feeling a deep gratitude came over me because somehow I had accomplished a state of "non-attachment" to the dearest things in my world, yet I was still in my body. What this meant to me was FREEDOM from suffering. I knew going forward that no matter what happened in my life I would not suffer. That I was really spirit. I was a physical manifesting of this being of light which is ALL and eternal.
A couple of weeks later I met Khanh and his wife Lhing at Thanksgiving dinner. I was so excited to tell them about my vivid dream and what I might mean for Khanh. I told them about the golden being of light and that Khanh's face was already in it and it gave me courage to merge with it and let go "from my worldly attachments". They seem to have felt moved by the vision but they did not know from the human mind what it really meant. I implied that it meant that Khanh is much further along on the journey to enlightenment than he might think, and that he and I are somehow more connected on our journeys. Then other people came into the room and everyone "moved on" from this discussion and things go back to normal conversion and jokes about me being "crazy". I know they did not meant to brush me off. It is very difficult for humans to really talk about spiritual stuff because it means dealing with "death" or releasing attachments and the human ego does not want to address such topics unless it is forced to do so through suffering and crisis. So I gave up trying to get them to listen to me.
Fast forward to his past week, when Khanh very suddenly had a massive stroke and we are all visiting him at the hospital. It became clear to me that Khanh, who has always been everyone's favorite sibling, really was a very evolve spiritual being and not just my little brother who likes to joke about me being crazy. He, unlike me, never needed to have a spontaneous spiritual awakening like I did in 2012. He was always since birth a very kind compassionate person. He never once followed in his older siblings footsteps and created drama in his relationships. We were a dysfunctional family and there were many arguments, finger pointing, and disconnection among us. Khanh never took sides and always chose the higher road of forgiveness. He even seemed to circumvent the need for forgiveness by never really getting himself into dramas where there was even a need to forgive. It was clear by the large number of long time friendships he was cultivated in his life. He NEVER took himself seriously. I also didn't take his teasing me as serious in anyway because he is full of light and fun. He always sought to balance worldly responsibilities without letting work get in the way of family and recreational activities. Instead of choosing jobs that would increase his salary or provide promotions, he always went for the jobs that allowed him to spend more time with family and friends. During the past 47 years, he lived it to the fullest and had absolutely nothing to regret. The number of really good friends who flew in from out of state to be by his hospital bed exemplified his inherent positive and loving heart and the kind of life he has lived. They all seem to know each other too, which indicates that he was very inclusive and often encouraged connections in his network. Everyone loves him because he loves everyone unconditionally. They all described him as someone who was always light and joking; dirty jokes were his expertise. Someone you can always rely on and who was a generous giver and a gracious receiver. He has impeccable integrity also. He is my hero and someone I strive to emulate.
Now the dream about the golden being of light is starting to make more sense. I told my sister about this dream when we were in his hospital room. She took it to mean that merging with the being of light means Khanh was to die first and the fact that the being of light asked me to let go of my attachments and merge with it meant that I would die next, so she asked "Does this mean you are next to die? How long do you think you have? One year? Two years?". I smiled and thought how funny the human mind can be so linear in conclusions. Yes, of course if Khanh dies, then I would die AFTER him, since don't we all die? Life is not about how long you live, it is about how well you live. How much heart and love do you give out, versus, fear and negativity? This is the real question. My reply to her was "I'm not exactly sure when I will die but I think the dream indicates that enlightenment, or merging with the being of light and letting go of our attachments, does not have to wait until we die (since I woke up from the dream and realized I was still alive), we can choose it NOW, and also that Khanh is the Buddha among us because he exemplifies a very evolved soul who is ahead of us on the journey."
Later that night after this conversation, I dedicated my evening meditations to connecting with Khanh. I started getting visions of him playing in a beautiful field with my mom, who passed away in September 2016, and Khanh was very close to her and really missed her. They were both young looking, almost the same age. I floated up to him and asked him when he plans on getting back in his body. He telepathically sent me so much love as a reply that my question was not relevant. He was in a state of bliss and joy and is where he wants to be. He told me to keep connecting with him through my heart and as I can see he and my mom are alive and well. The next night I meditated with him again, and this time he sent me waves and waves of healing bliss energy. More than I had every felt before. If you have read my previous posts, you will know I feel a lot of bliss energy, but connecting to Khanh's soul catapulted me into even higher states of bliss. I felt so overwhelmed my his love for me and the cells of my body sang and danced with joy! I telepathically said to him, "why are you giving me so much, should you not use this for you own body in the hospital?" He replied that we are of One soul all of us. That by my ability to connect to him, we can experience what is always and already available to all and it is amplified when two souls merge as One and if I was feeling the bliss, he was also feeling it by giving it -- the giving and receiving it how the bliss energy is experienced. He asked me to shine this forth to his family and all who will be open to it.
The next day, I visited him in the hospital and meditated holding his hand. We shared more bliss energy and I observed his visions. He was showing me holographic pictures of things he liked to do, like cuddling with his daughter in the living room chair, going on road trips to Canada with family and friends, walking around his work office cubicle and campus, laughing and joking with his wife, etc. Then he gave me a message to give his wife. He said (telepathically since souls don't use words to communicate) she was burdened in her heart and he could not transmit the same healing bliss energy to her and that he asked me to help her relieve the burden and lighten up so he could get through. I sat down with her and shared the message. I feel that there will be more messages and more transmissions from him as he is very much alive and wants all who love him to know this and feel his bliss and merge with it. I love you Khanh so much and I thank you for so generously sharing with me and being my hero and leader showing and encouraging me to let go of my worldly attachments and connect with the One soul that you already are!
During my 2018 awakening I briefly mentioned having a vivid dream/vision in which I merged with a golden being of light that I call my I AM presence. There is more to this dream that I will mention now. Before this dream I had been going through massive energy purges and periods of heart openings and euphoria that eventually led to my breast cancer tumor disappearing. The night of the dream occurred in early November. I was in a state of spiritual ecstasy and sent out a prayer that I wanted to go higher and further. In the dream a huge golden being of light appeared before me. It placed in my right hand a glowing ball of pulsating light and transmitted to me that this represented my "world" and everything that I was attached to (friends, family, material possessions). The being instructed me to look closely at the pulsating ball in my hand. As I looked at it the ball slowly disappeared. The being telepathically said "You see, it's all illusion. To go further you must let it go, say goodbye, and merge with me." I felt a moment of conflict. My attachments, even though illusions, were very dear to my heart. I shed tears of sorrow as I said good bye to the dearest things of my world -- my husband Jeff and son Evan. I knew they would be OK without me even though it hurt me to not be with them. But I knew the being of light was where I belonged if I really wanted to go further on my journey.
At that moment of decision I peered into the being of light and saw the face of my brother Khanh. I was surprised that he was already in the being of light. I pondered what that meant and received a heart knowing that Khanh was really part of the over-soul that I belonged to and that he was already there because he (though youngest among the siblings) had already advanced on his journey where he accomplished this sacred merge, this enlightenment. Seeing his face in the light gave me courage to finally let go and merge into it even though it felt like I was truly dying. An indescribable feeling of bliss and peace overcame me as I became One with the light, One with Khanh.
Then I woke up from the dream and realized that I had not died. A feeling a deep gratitude came over me because somehow I had accomplished a state of "non-attachment" to the dearest things in my world, yet I was still in my body. What this meant to me was FREEDOM from suffering. I knew going forward that no matter what happened in my life I would not suffer. That I was really spirit. I was a physical manifesting of this being of light which is ALL and eternal.
A couple of weeks later I met Khanh and his wife Lhing at Thanksgiving dinner. I was so excited to tell them about my vivid dream and what I might mean for Khanh. I told them about the golden being of light and that Khanh's face was already in it and it gave me courage to merge with it and let go "from my worldly attachments". They seem to have felt moved by the vision but they did not know from the human mind what it really meant. I implied that it meant that Khanh is much further along on the journey to enlightenment than he might think, and that he and I are somehow more connected on our journeys. Then other people came into the room and everyone "moved on" from this discussion and things go back to normal conversion and jokes about me being "crazy". I know they did not meant to brush me off. It is very difficult for humans to really talk about spiritual stuff because it means dealing with "death" or releasing attachments and the human ego does not want to address such topics unless it is forced to do so through suffering and crisis. So I gave up trying to get them to listen to me.
Fast forward to his past week, when Khanh very suddenly had a massive stroke and we are all visiting him at the hospital. It became clear to me that Khanh, who has always been everyone's favorite sibling, really was a very evolve spiritual being and not just my little brother who likes to joke about me being crazy. He, unlike me, never needed to have a spontaneous spiritual awakening like I did in 2012. He was always since birth a very kind compassionate person. He never once followed in his older siblings footsteps and created drama in his relationships. We were a dysfunctional family and there were many arguments, finger pointing, and disconnection among us. Khanh never took sides and always chose the higher road of forgiveness. He even seemed to circumvent the need for forgiveness by never really getting himself into dramas where there was even a need to forgive. It was clear by the large number of long time friendships he was cultivated in his life. He NEVER took himself seriously. I also didn't take his teasing me as serious in anyway because he is full of light and fun. He always sought to balance worldly responsibilities without letting work get in the way of family and recreational activities. Instead of choosing jobs that would increase his salary or provide promotions, he always went for the jobs that allowed him to spend more time with family and friends. During the past 47 years, he lived it to the fullest and had absolutely nothing to regret. The number of really good friends who flew in from out of state to be by his hospital bed exemplified his inherent positive and loving heart and the kind of life he has lived. They all seem to know each other too, which indicates that he was very inclusive and often encouraged connections in his network. Everyone loves him because he loves everyone unconditionally. They all described him as someone who was always light and joking; dirty jokes were his expertise. Someone you can always rely on and who was a generous giver and a gracious receiver. He has impeccable integrity also. He is my hero and someone I strive to emulate.
Now the dream about the golden being of light is starting to make more sense. I told my sister about this dream when we were in his hospital room. She took it to mean that merging with the being of light means Khanh was to die first and the fact that the being of light asked me to let go of my attachments and merge with it meant that I would die next, so she asked "Does this mean you are next to die? How long do you think you have? One year? Two years?". I smiled and thought how funny the human mind can be so linear in conclusions. Yes, of course if Khanh dies, then I would die AFTER him, since don't we all die? Life is not about how long you live, it is about how well you live. How much heart and love do you give out, versus, fear and negativity? This is the real question. My reply to her was "I'm not exactly sure when I will die but I think the dream indicates that enlightenment, or merging with the being of light and letting go of our attachments, does not have to wait until we die (since I woke up from the dream and realized I was still alive), we can choose it NOW, and also that Khanh is the Buddha among us because he exemplifies a very evolved soul who is ahead of us on the journey."
Later that night after this conversation, I dedicated my evening meditations to connecting with Khanh. I started getting visions of him playing in a beautiful field with my mom, who passed away in September 2016, and Khanh was very close to her and really missed her. They were both young looking, almost the same age. I floated up to him and asked him when he plans on getting back in his body. He telepathically sent me so much love as a reply that my question was not relevant. He was in a state of bliss and joy and is where he wants to be. He told me to keep connecting with him through my heart and as I can see he and my mom are alive and well. The next night I meditated with him again, and this time he sent me waves and waves of healing bliss energy. More than I had every felt before. If you have read my previous posts, you will know I feel a lot of bliss energy, but connecting to Khanh's soul catapulted me into even higher states of bliss. I felt so overwhelmed my his love for me and the cells of my body sang and danced with joy! I telepathically said to him, "why are you giving me so much, should you not use this for you own body in the hospital?" He replied that we are of One soul all of us. That by my ability to connect to him, we can experience what is always and already available to all and it is amplified when two souls merge as One and if I was feeling the bliss, he was also feeling it by giving it -- the giving and receiving it how the bliss energy is experienced. He asked me to shine this forth to his family and all who will be open to it.
The next day, I visited him in the hospital and meditated holding his hand. We shared more bliss energy and I observed his visions. He was showing me holographic pictures of things he liked to do, like cuddling with his daughter in the living room chair, going on road trips to Canada with family and friends, walking around his work office cubicle and campus, laughing and joking with his wife, etc. Then he gave me a message to give his wife. He said (telepathically since souls don't use words to communicate) she was burdened in her heart and he could not transmit the same healing bliss energy to her and that he asked me to help her relieve the burden and lighten up so he could get through. I sat down with her and shared the message. I feel that there will be more messages and more transmissions from him as he is very much alive and wants all who love him to know this and feel his bliss and merge with it. I love you Khanh so much and I thank you for so generously sharing with me and being my hero and leader showing and encouraging me to let go of my worldly attachments and connect with the One soul that you already are!
Sunday, May 19, 2019
Another Full Moon Breakthrough!
I was full of hope and anticipation that yesterday's May 18th full moon would bring about another trans-formative experience within me. The universe did not disappointment. I had the most self-empowering, beautiful dream that was so real I woke up KNOWING that I had finally made the breakthrough I have been "working" on for so long. NOW, I can say that the journey of life is truly not about accomplishing anything on the external or seeking money, power, validation, relationships, or medical cures. It is about transcending all the mental limitations within the human psyche that blocks us from FEELING our true power. Only when we achieve this level of self-awareness can all mental, emotional, and physical suffering end. This is "The Way" out of the 3D matrix of separation, drama, trauma, and dis-ease. It is an inward journey as wells as making moment to moment choices in the external reality to be more loving and compassionate towards oneself and others and release attachments to the distractions of the external in order to focus more on the inner. For me, the journey has been a lot of energy work which involves dream work. Dreams, like everything, are made of energy created by the subconscious mind. Everything is created by mind even the solid things we call our bodies and our world. Nothing exists outside our consciousness. Going from 3D to 5D is an expansion of consciousness by means of massive energy that moves into the human mind from the Divine mind which is inseparable from the human mind. So technically the human mind experiences limitations and suffering only temporarily until we each make a choice to expand our consciousness beyond the limitations. This is the journey. The suffering we experience is actually the catalyst that keeps us focused on the journey when we are tired of experiencing pain and suffering and want to experience true FREEDOM. The journey goes on and on infinitely so there is no ultimate destination, just breakthroughs after breakthroughs each one propelling us further and further away from suffering and closer and closer to Oneness with God/Source. I've been on this journey consciously since my 2012 awakening. But all of humanity is on this journey either subconsciously or consciously each with our own individual twists and turns.
Let me first give a little background on the "dream work" that I have been doing. In dreams we process our mental and emotional experiences. We also "travel" to other parallel realities and expand our consciousness beyond our normal waking reality and explore possibilities that allow us to bring back into our waking reality what we need to progress along our path. The path I speak of is the "journey" towards self-discovery, which is also the journey to connecting to our spiritual nature and thus end human suffering. Suffering is our limiting human mind's experience of feeling disconnected from our source (our spirit, the part of us that is One with God). When we are disconnected we become a closed loop energetically and suffer mentally, emotionally, physically because we do not have the Divine energy required to clear all the denser reactive energies of fear, anger, confusion, hopelessness that occur when we get bombarded with the 3D programming that runs in the collective human consciousness. In a closed loop we are trapped in the 3D matrix and experience the illusions of separation that perpetuate endless suffering, war, strife, illness, hopelessness.
After my 2012 awakening, I received a massive download of energy into my mind and soon realized that I could become very aware in my dreams. Most people don't remember their dreams due to a lack of mental energy or self-awareness. Some of my dreams became lucid dreams in which I realized I was dreaming while I was still in the dream. This is a power state of mind because I began to connect the truth that EVERYTHING in my experience even my waking state, was happening in a dream, within my mind (my consciousness). This level of self-awareness allowed me to choose differently than most people. I became less fearful and reactive and more curious about how this all works and why I experience what I experience. This is why in 2018 when I was diagnosed with breast cancer that I knew that I was free to pick a less painful way to deal with it. I decided to do more "inner work" or energy work instead of traditional surgery and chemo which would have been more painful and in my mind, not really bring about REAL healing. I knew that illness is a distortion of mind and my body is a creation of my mind so I had to address WHY my mind was creating the illness.
Because of my choices I began to receive more energetic downloads that have progressively brought me into more expansive states of consciousness where I experience a deeper connection to my own soul and also connection to the higher realms of spirit where Divine energies purified my mental and emotional energetic fields from the dark and dense traumas that I held within my body and energy field. This was initially an difficult, sometimes horrific experience because I actually experienced the fear, anger, sadness move through and out of my consciousness. But I knew I had to surrender to the experiences and venture into the unknown that my limited human mind did not understand. If I did not keep going on the path, I knew the cancer would kill my body and I knew that was not the path I wanted. I wanted to heal my body and mind. After the tough purging experiences, the journey became less bumpy and I began to experience the energy of BLISS during my meditations. This melted away all my pain and resistance. This BLISS is a vibration in very cell of my being that was so pleasurable, beyond anything I had every experienced.
Every full moon and equinox/solstice I get an energetic boost. Yesterday's full moon resulted in more BLISS energy vibrating in my body as I laid in bed doing my evening meditation. Then I fell asleep blissfully and had this amazing dream that was a huge breakthrough. This past month, I was dreaming almost every night and some of the dreams were very dark. They were about releasing ancestral karma and releasing fear and blockages that were preventing me from accessing my full potential for co-creating magic and miracles. Releasing the dark, dense energies from my consciousness has been an ongoing process. There are layers upon layers. It's no surprise to me why I got breast cancer. WOW. There was so much "suppression of the feminine" in my energy field. It was from my ancestral line and also deep within the collective human consciousness that I am also inseparable from. All the violence against women throughout all time was stored within me. I believe we all have this same core wound within us. I had to witness and release it within my dreams. With each release I felt lighter and more BLISS energy came.
Last night, I finally had a dream that was not dark or addressing some block or fear. I had finally made it to a breakthrough point where it was fully able to experience a higher state of being that I knew was my true heritage after moving past and releasing all the hurt and trauma of my past and my ancestors. In this wonderful dream, I was in a parallel reality where I lived in a huge mansion overlooking a gorgeous scenery of rolling hills, blue clouds and ocean. In the dream I was "practicing" my mind powers within some fresh plant clippings. I would hold the leaves in my hand and "command" them with my mind to wither and dry up. Magically it worked and the leaves transformed as commanded in my hands. I got really excited that I could finally do this. So I traveled over to where a group of friends gathered. They were like my respected colleagues in this dream world like we were scientists working on how to accomplish mind over matter together and I was the first to figure it out. I brought them to my house and demonstrated to them with the plant clippings what I had just done and they were in awe and celebration. I was so excited. Then I told them that I could also now levitate myself. I confidently jumped into the air and levitated spinning around the room and floated with my legs crossed in a yogi position. They were all in shock. I told them to record this phenomenon with their iphones, which they all began to take pictures of me. I felt exhilaration, all my efforts have finally paid off and my magical abilities have finally come on line! I next went outside to the beautiful view and catapulted myself over the air floating over the hills and ocean flying around. I felt so empowered and magical. I then floated back in for a smooth landing on the concrete patio. Then I woke up slowly from this beautiful dream feeling like all my inner work and clearing of dark energies from the past has finally lifted me into this new state of being where I could now confidently and joyfully express my true powers not only within this dream state, but also carry this forth into my waking state, which is also a form of dream within the One mind.
Laying in bed feeling so vindicated, grateful, and confident I basked in the glory of this moment. I wondered how I should wield this new "level up" power. I felt a tension in my back, a knot that was hurting me yesterday. So I sent bliss charged energy into that area feeling very confident in my new abilities. Sure enough, energy began to flow into that knot and I felt a warm vibration so pleasure fill my entire back area. Within seconds this vibration dissolved the knot that I tried and tried to massage out yesterday and could not. Next, I sent the bliss energy into my armpit area where I had been feeling some discomfort and the vibration moved into my armpit and all the tensions melted away. It felt so good!
I'm so excited about how this wonderful dream affects my waking reality going forward. I know it has something to do with commanding the energy of bliss, Divine energy and using it to heal myself and affect my waking reality in miraculous ways. What a beautiful journey this has been and continues to be. I know if I keep flowing with the universe and surrendering to this inner work I will keep having these magical trans-formative experiences. This gives me not only hope but also a clear understanding of why I AM here and how I can serve by sharing my experiences and being an example of how we can each reach within ourselves overcome our fear and suffering and free ourselves from the 3D matrix that keeps us limited and powerless. May the PEACE of God be with you!
Let me first give a little background on the "dream work" that I have been doing. In dreams we process our mental and emotional experiences. We also "travel" to other parallel realities and expand our consciousness beyond our normal waking reality and explore possibilities that allow us to bring back into our waking reality what we need to progress along our path. The path I speak of is the "journey" towards self-discovery, which is also the journey to connecting to our spiritual nature and thus end human suffering. Suffering is our limiting human mind's experience of feeling disconnected from our source (our spirit, the part of us that is One with God). When we are disconnected we become a closed loop energetically and suffer mentally, emotionally, physically because we do not have the Divine energy required to clear all the denser reactive energies of fear, anger, confusion, hopelessness that occur when we get bombarded with the 3D programming that runs in the collective human consciousness. In a closed loop we are trapped in the 3D matrix and experience the illusions of separation that perpetuate endless suffering, war, strife, illness, hopelessness.
After my 2012 awakening, I received a massive download of energy into my mind and soon realized that I could become very aware in my dreams. Most people don't remember their dreams due to a lack of mental energy or self-awareness. Some of my dreams became lucid dreams in which I realized I was dreaming while I was still in the dream. This is a power state of mind because I began to connect the truth that EVERYTHING in my experience even my waking state, was happening in a dream, within my mind (my consciousness). This level of self-awareness allowed me to choose differently than most people. I became less fearful and reactive and more curious about how this all works and why I experience what I experience. This is why in 2018 when I was diagnosed with breast cancer that I knew that I was free to pick a less painful way to deal with it. I decided to do more "inner work" or energy work instead of traditional surgery and chemo which would have been more painful and in my mind, not really bring about REAL healing. I knew that illness is a distortion of mind and my body is a creation of my mind so I had to address WHY my mind was creating the illness.
Because of my choices I began to receive more energetic downloads that have progressively brought me into more expansive states of consciousness where I experience a deeper connection to my own soul and also connection to the higher realms of spirit where Divine energies purified my mental and emotional energetic fields from the dark and dense traumas that I held within my body and energy field. This was initially an difficult, sometimes horrific experience because I actually experienced the fear, anger, sadness move through and out of my consciousness. But I knew I had to surrender to the experiences and venture into the unknown that my limited human mind did not understand. If I did not keep going on the path, I knew the cancer would kill my body and I knew that was not the path I wanted. I wanted to heal my body and mind. After the tough purging experiences, the journey became less bumpy and I began to experience the energy of BLISS during my meditations. This melted away all my pain and resistance. This BLISS is a vibration in very cell of my being that was so pleasurable, beyond anything I had every experienced.
Every full moon and equinox/solstice I get an energetic boost. Yesterday's full moon resulted in more BLISS energy vibrating in my body as I laid in bed doing my evening meditation. Then I fell asleep blissfully and had this amazing dream that was a huge breakthrough. This past month, I was dreaming almost every night and some of the dreams were very dark. They were about releasing ancestral karma and releasing fear and blockages that were preventing me from accessing my full potential for co-creating magic and miracles. Releasing the dark, dense energies from my consciousness has been an ongoing process. There are layers upon layers. It's no surprise to me why I got breast cancer. WOW. There was so much "suppression of the feminine" in my energy field. It was from my ancestral line and also deep within the collective human consciousness that I am also inseparable from. All the violence against women throughout all time was stored within me. I believe we all have this same core wound within us. I had to witness and release it within my dreams. With each release I felt lighter and more BLISS energy came.
Last night, I finally had a dream that was not dark or addressing some block or fear. I had finally made it to a breakthrough point where it was fully able to experience a higher state of being that I knew was my true heritage after moving past and releasing all the hurt and trauma of my past and my ancestors. In this wonderful dream, I was in a parallel reality where I lived in a huge mansion overlooking a gorgeous scenery of rolling hills, blue clouds and ocean. In the dream I was "practicing" my mind powers within some fresh plant clippings. I would hold the leaves in my hand and "command" them with my mind to wither and dry up. Magically it worked and the leaves transformed as commanded in my hands. I got really excited that I could finally do this. So I traveled over to where a group of friends gathered. They were like my respected colleagues in this dream world like we were scientists working on how to accomplish mind over matter together and I was the first to figure it out. I brought them to my house and demonstrated to them with the plant clippings what I had just done and they were in awe and celebration. I was so excited. Then I told them that I could also now levitate myself. I confidently jumped into the air and levitated spinning around the room and floated with my legs crossed in a yogi position. They were all in shock. I told them to record this phenomenon with their iphones, which they all began to take pictures of me. I felt exhilaration, all my efforts have finally paid off and my magical abilities have finally come on line! I next went outside to the beautiful view and catapulted myself over the air floating over the hills and ocean flying around. I felt so empowered and magical. I then floated back in for a smooth landing on the concrete patio. Then I woke up slowly from this beautiful dream feeling like all my inner work and clearing of dark energies from the past has finally lifted me into this new state of being where I could now confidently and joyfully express my true powers not only within this dream state, but also carry this forth into my waking state, which is also a form of dream within the One mind.
Laying in bed feeling so vindicated, grateful, and confident I basked in the glory of this moment. I wondered how I should wield this new "level up" power. I felt a tension in my back, a knot that was hurting me yesterday. So I sent bliss charged energy into that area feeling very confident in my new abilities. Sure enough, energy began to flow into that knot and I felt a warm vibration so pleasure fill my entire back area. Within seconds this vibration dissolved the knot that I tried and tried to massage out yesterday and could not. Next, I sent the bliss energy into my armpit area where I had been feeling some discomfort and the vibration moved into my armpit and all the tensions melted away. It felt so good!
I'm so excited about how this wonderful dream affects my waking reality going forward. I know it has something to do with commanding the energy of bliss, Divine energy and using it to heal myself and affect my waking reality in miraculous ways. What a beautiful journey this has been and continues to be. I know if I keep flowing with the universe and surrendering to this inner work I will keep having these magical trans-formative experiences. This gives me not only hope but also a clear understanding of why I AM here and how I can serve by sharing my experiences and being an example of how we can each reach within ourselves overcome our fear and suffering and free ourselves from the 3D matrix that keeps us limited and powerless. May the PEACE of God be with you!
Sunday, April 21, 2019
Oneness is the Only Way Out of This Mess
I normally don't watch or read the news because I know the 3D world is full of fear and atrocities and the only way to salvation is to LET GO of the old ways of being in separation and come into a state of Oneness from within. Being overly identified with culture and religious beliefs even if the original intention is to be peaceful and come closer to God can often lead to separation and ultimately violence. This is why when people ask me if I'm a Christian or a Buddhist I reply "I'm nothing and I'm everything because ALL is valid and yet none of it is really what I AM."
How do we humans bring about peace on earth? By each of us individually coming into a place of Oneness with ALL and releasing any need to "belong" to any cultural of religious group in order to feel like we have power or purpose. I label myself as a Starseed, but I know that we all come from the stars and within all of us is the "seed" of the Christ. Not in a Christian religious way, but the TRUE way which is that of unity and Oneness.
This Easter Sunday, I send out a prayer of love and healing to all of humanity asking for tolerance and forgiveness. Religions, scriptures and dogma are outwardly focused attempts by mankind to seek what is already there within the heart. The human mind can not truly find peace with God when outwardly focused and identifying with belief systems (BS). In truth God has NO dogma or rules that need to be followed. It's up to us humans to create our own way of being and often times because our limited minds can not grasp the magnitude of existence, we invent belief structures to box ourselves into a small box where we can feel a sense of comfort and control; that this or that is the right way.
This is why The Way out is to go inside within the heart. We can liberate ourselves from human angst and the endless search. Otherwise, we are victims of external influences, societal and religious messages that we have to believe and behave a certain way. Once we fall into these limiting traps, it becomes a "us against them" drama and this karmic cycle will keep repeating over and over, one group against another and it will not end. This is the OLD way of being. Fighting terrorism is feeding terrorism. Feeling empathy for one group and revulsion for another only keeps us on the karmic wheel and we collectively suffer endlessly.
The 5D way of being is to rise above all of it by going into the heart and connecting directly to our Divinity within. We must transcend separation and duality. Remember, all of this is a 3D holographic show of lights and there is no need to become lost in it. Once we take our personalities, cultural backgrounds and religious beliefs too seriously, we start putting our precious energy into crusades and campaigns to influence others and it starts to escalate into war and terror.
Send love and forgiveness to those who are still suffering in 3D strife, but don't let yourself become enraged and embolden. True peace and change comes from releasing the need to "right the wrongs" of the world. The microcosm is the macrocosm. You don't fight cancer. You make peace with cancer. Resist Not Evil. That is the only way to liberation. Be in the world but not of it. Breathe in the breath of life into your hearts and you will be able to rise above it. We do not heal the world by fighting, identifying with or pitying anyone. There is only One here expressing ALL of creation. The One need not fear or fight the ALL because ALL is One.
Easter Sunday represents Peace and Love to ALL and HOPE that human kind can transcend the "death" mentality of separation by conscious choice and stop feeding subconscious reactions. The ultimate show of LOVE is to respond to atrocities with forgiveness and acceptance. It is my hope that more and more of us ascend to 5D consciousness and leave behind the need for atrocities to manifest and wake people up the hard way. Earth can be a school of hard knocks but that's what we signed up for when we incarnate here. There is a way out of this mess....Oneness.
How do we humans bring about peace on earth? By each of us individually coming into a place of Oneness with ALL and releasing any need to "belong" to any cultural of religious group in order to feel like we have power or purpose. I label myself as a Starseed, but I know that we all come from the stars and within all of us is the "seed" of the Christ. Not in a Christian religious way, but the TRUE way which is that of unity and Oneness.
This Easter Sunday, I send out a prayer of love and healing to all of humanity asking for tolerance and forgiveness. Religions, scriptures and dogma are outwardly focused attempts by mankind to seek what is already there within the heart. The human mind can not truly find peace with God when outwardly focused and identifying with belief systems (BS). In truth God has NO dogma or rules that need to be followed. It's up to us humans to create our own way of being and often times because our limited minds can not grasp the magnitude of existence, we invent belief structures to box ourselves into a small box where we can feel a sense of comfort and control; that this or that is the right way.
This is why The Way out is to go inside within the heart. We can liberate ourselves from human angst and the endless search. Otherwise, we are victims of external influences, societal and religious messages that we have to believe and behave a certain way. Once we fall into these limiting traps, it becomes a "us against them" drama and this karmic cycle will keep repeating over and over, one group against another and it will not end. This is the OLD way of being. Fighting terrorism is feeding terrorism. Feeling empathy for one group and revulsion for another only keeps us on the karmic wheel and we collectively suffer endlessly.
The 5D way of being is to rise above all of it by going into the heart and connecting directly to our Divinity within. We must transcend separation and duality. Remember, all of this is a 3D holographic show of lights and there is no need to become lost in it. Once we take our personalities, cultural backgrounds and religious beliefs too seriously, we start putting our precious energy into crusades and campaigns to influence others and it starts to escalate into war and terror.
Send love and forgiveness to those who are still suffering in 3D strife, but don't let yourself become enraged and embolden. True peace and change comes from releasing the need to "right the wrongs" of the world. The microcosm is the macrocosm. You don't fight cancer. You make peace with cancer. Resist Not Evil. That is the only way to liberation. Be in the world but not of it. Breathe in the breath of life into your hearts and you will be able to rise above it. We do not heal the world by fighting, identifying with or pitying anyone. There is only One here expressing ALL of creation. The One need not fear or fight the ALL because ALL is One.
Easter Sunday represents Peace and Love to ALL and HOPE that human kind can transcend the "death" mentality of separation by conscious choice and stop feeding subconscious reactions. The ultimate show of LOVE is to respond to atrocities with forgiveness and acceptance. It is my hope that more and more of us ascend to 5D consciousness and leave behind the need for atrocities to manifest and wake people up the hard way. Earth can be a school of hard knocks but that's what we signed up for when we incarnate here. There is a way out of this mess....Oneness.
Saturday, April 20, 2019
The Starseed Collective Consciousness
I had another deep and major breakthrough during meditation this month. I went into this bliss state and further into the cosmic heart into a pure "nothingness" state of being. All my realities collapsed into an instant. All past, present, future disappeared into a void and I realized that EVERYTHING has already occurred and I was pure consciousness. From that state I realized I could truly call forth and connect to anything/anywhere because I AM the ALL. So I set intention to connect to the highest state of being and what came forth was the "Starseed Collective Consciousness". It was a NEW energy that represented all incarnated Starseeds on earth at this time. I felt the desires of this energy and the potential and excitement it contained to birth forth and connect in the physical reality as 5D earth. It was me and I was it. It was also all of YOU out there who have awakened and are embodied, seeking connecting, truth, expression and freedom to co-create in a new way, a way of the heart that is boundless and flowing.
This has led me to evolve my mission and expand even further beyond my own embodiment to include a broader scope that reaches out to my family of light that is not in the invisible realms, but also those who are here on earth NOW as embodied humans who know their own truth. We are all unique but share the common bond of LOVE for humanity. I realized that I now need to move beyond just playing my favorite game of Blackjack. I have to expand my power and energy to be more inclusive of other Starseeds who can use my love and support on their own unique journeys and may want my support in manifesting the abundance, health, wealth, joy, and creative expressions that weave together the exciting new realities of 5D earth life!
This Starseed Collective consists of people like me who are awake and aware and have gone through all the drama and trauma of 3D earth and are ready to heal themselves and ascend to the 5D existence. We all need each other's love and support. We all need to share resources and collaborate. Change can only happen when each individual (like myself) embraces and embodies fully the new energies.
We must "BE the change" that we want to see in the new world while existing also in the OLD world of 3D suffering of dis-ease, addictions, judgement, separation and trauma. How do we make this transition and be the bridge between heaven and earth? It's simple. Just ALLOW the heart to guide and be present to the moment of opportunities to SHARE ad SERVE others. This is not done in an ego way where we obsess of the problems of the 3D world like I did before in 2013 when helping homeless people. This new way of being is non-judgmental so I don't go on some campaign to end homelessness. I just stay present in my daily life and see how I can serve without being attached to a crusade "against" some flaw in society. Thinking about flaws is an old 3D mentality that does not serve us in the new earth. There are no problems and flaws, there are only opportunities to share love, and resources. This means we stop judging and we bring down all the barriers. We Starseeds don't go around ignoring "others" who we deem "non-Starseed". Technically we are ALL Starseeds, yet 99% of us are still in 3D suffering mode and those of us who have transcended to 5D that like I have by undergoing the massive energy purification of our minds and bodies have the inner power and guidance from the angelic realms to affect others who are suffering and heal them and bring them into the Starseed Collective Consciousness one soul at a time. We do this by being present to opportunities and not "preaching" of judging. By our actions and intentions we "shift" others and empower them towards healing and wholeness.
For example, I love animals (Starseeds love animals) was at a local dog park (I don't have a dog, but was led by my inner guidance to enter the dog park) and I saw a 3 legged golden retriever. I used to have a golden retriever so I felt a resonance with this dog who was so full of love and playfulness. Her disability did not diminish her spirit. I talked to her owner, Shelby, and asked if her dog (Mishka) had a prosthetic leg. Shelby said yes, but she did not have time to train Mishka how to use it because she herself was in crisis and temporarily between homes and staying with her mom who does not want Mishka around. Shelby was on the verge of giving up her dog to the shelter and I could feel her emotional pain. Tears came down my face I could not control. So I told Shelby I would take Mishka and help her rehabilitate with the prosthetic leg while Shelby looked for a more permanent home. I did not really know how to rehab dog, but my inner guidance took over and it actually went really well. Mishka and I spent alot of time together and I worked with her to help her gain awareness of the prosthetic and I sent healing energy into her right side to help strengthen it since she did not use her right side. At the end of our time together Mishka started balancing and putting weight on her right side which she did not do before. Shelby also was magically "blessed" to find a new home for both of herself and Mishka at a home where dogs were loved and welcomed! So the universe somehow miraculous flowed in loving grace and I was able to be part of this unfolding.
Here's another example. I have many many examples of how I miraculously flow with the universe by being heart-centered and open to "serving others" in a fun, non-judgmental way. While I was playing with Mishka in the cul-de-sac, the neighbor's dog came to play with Miskha and then eventually the neighbor (who I rarely see) came out to checkout the 3 legged dog. I told my neighbor, Lori, the story, and she was so touched by my act of kindness. We talked about our sons who are both 14 years old. Laurie mentioned her son, Ty, got recently suspended from school because he got into fights with bullies and it wasn't his fault, he is "on the spectrum of autism" and doesn't regulate his emotions well. I told her (being guided by spirit to say so) that I would work with her son because I am a trained Hearthmath coach. She gladly accepted, so right that minute I spoke to Ty and asked him if I could meditate with him for a few minutes. Ty (feeling my loving non-judgmental energy) accepted and within 20 minutes he shifted and came out of his shell. Since then, we have had 5 sessions together and he is so much more happy and even got an "A" in math by using the meditation techniques I showed him. Now, Ty, is empowered and his soul has come on line. He loves tuning into his heart and feels more centered and in control of his emotions.
Another example, one of my tenants at a condo I own, Chris, keeps paying his rent late even though he is an employed electrician. I intuitively knew he was having addiction issues because when I talk to him he seems completely "out of it" and smelled of pot and alcohol and his eyes were cloudy and he seems defensive and belligerent. He also wouldn't let me inspect his room (I do safety inspections every few months). So I made a choice to approach the situation from a heart-centered perspective instead of exercising my legal right to evict him. I told him nicely that I want to listen to him and see if I can help him since I'm an energy healer. He softened and eventually after some coaxing let me see his room. It was horrendous. There was trash everywhere and empty beer bottles piled so high. He was hoarding trash in his room and was obviously spiraling out of control. Since I had much experience working with homeless people I knew that Chris was not going to be able to get another place to live if I evict him. The number one thing that can prevent homelessness, is to have someone actually CARE about others who are in crisis at the time they need it most. So I told him I would help him clean up his room and if he agreed to let me meditate and do energy healing with him, I would not evict him and give him a second chance. He felt my pure intention and non-judgment and he agreed without getting defensive. After only one healing session, Chris felt the energy move through his body and his eyes cleared up. He texted me yesterday that he would like another session tomorrow and he has "cut way back on drinking" already.
Here's another example (I can go on and on because I do this all the time). While I was in Vegas this past week, I walked by a homeless young woman. I always make eye contact with everyone I pass and bless them in my heart, this includes homeless people. Sometimes I give them a few dollars, sometimes they don't return my eye contract so I bless them and move on. With this woman, Brittany, I was guided to talk to her. I squatted down and got comfortable next to her and we talked. Thousands of Vegas vacationers walked by us without looking at her. Brittany says she has been homeless in Vegas after getting robbed while vacationing from Ogden, UT 18 months ago. She said she was tired of this homeless life and was ready to go home and patch things up with her estranged family but she doesn't have the $90 for the Greyhound bus ticket. My intuition told me she was telling the truth. Some homeless people do lie and say this so you give them more money, but in this case it was different. I told her I would take her in an Uber to the Greyhound station and buy her a ticket to Ogden, UT. She was over the moon with joy! We walked into the next casino (the Palazzo) to catch the Uber. Brittany said "they don't let me in the casino because I don't have ID". I knew that the security people judge homeless people and use this "let me see your ID" as a way to keep them out. I told her she was with me and they won't bother us, which they did not. The security guy was actually very helpful when I asked him directions on where to pick up the Uber. We made in the Uber and chatted and joked while in the car. I really enjoyed her company, she was my equal in every way and I treated her with kindness and respect. The Uber driver was so moved that he said "God bless you, Chi" when we got out at the Greyhound stations. These acts of kindness do not go unnoticed by others as we Starseeds shine our light upon the world. As we become "the change" others will shift and see that there is a new way to being and a new way of interacting with one another. Now Brittany is back home with her family and her journey continues and I know she is being blessed.
I can go on. These examples are only part of what I have done in the past few weeks, let alone what I have done and can continue to do in my life. What can YOU do to BE the change? How can I inspire you and help you?
I invite all Starseeds to join Joy Luck Club and see what we can do together to bring forth NEW earth together. Heaven is a state being my beloveds. Heaven is in the heart. I love you ALL and bless you on your journeys!
This has led me to evolve my mission and expand even further beyond my own embodiment to include a broader scope that reaches out to my family of light that is not in the invisible realms, but also those who are here on earth NOW as embodied humans who know their own truth. We are all unique but share the common bond of LOVE for humanity. I realized that I now need to move beyond just playing my favorite game of Blackjack. I have to expand my power and energy to be more inclusive of other Starseeds who can use my love and support on their own unique journeys and may want my support in manifesting the abundance, health, wealth, joy, and creative expressions that weave together the exciting new realities of 5D earth life!
This Starseed Collective consists of people like me who are awake and aware and have gone through all the drama and trauma of 3D earth and are ready to heal themselves and ascend to the 5D existence. We all need each other's love and support. We all need to share resources and collaborate. Change can only happen when each individual (like myself) embraces and embodies fully the new energies.
We must "BE the change" that we want to see in the new world while existing also in the OLD world of 3D suffering of dis-ease, addictions, judgement, separation and trauma. How do we make this transition and be the bridge between heaven and earth? It's simple. Just ALLOW the heart to guide and be present to the moment of opportunities to SHARE ad SERVE others. This is not done in an ego way where we obsess of the problems of the 3D world like I did before in 2013 when helping homeless people. This new way of being is non-judgmental so I don't go on some campaign to end homelessness. I just stay present in my daily life and see how I can serve without being attached to a crusade "against" some flaw in society. Thinking about flaws is an old 3D mentality that does not serve us in the new earth. There are no problems and flaws, there are only opportunities to share love, and resources. This means we stop judging and we bring down all the barriers. We Starseeds don't go around ignoring "others" who we deem "non-Starseed". Technically we are ALL Starseeds, yet 99% of us are still in 3D suffering mode and those of us who have transcended to 5D that like I have by undergoing the massive energy purification of our minds and bodies have the inner power and guidance from the angelic realms to affect others who are suffering and heal them and bring them into the Starseed Collective Consciousness one soul at a time. We do this by being present to opportunities and not "preaching" of judging. By our actions and intentions we "shift" others and empower them towards healing and wholeness.
For example, I love animals (Starseeds love animals) was at a local dog park (I don't have a dog, but was led by my inner guidance to enter the dog park) and I saw a 3 legged golden retriever. I used to have a golden retriever so I felt a resonance with this dog who was so full of love and playfulness. Her disability did not diminish her spirit. I talked to her owner, Shelby, and asked if her dog (Mishka) had a prosthetic leg. Shelby said yes, but she did not have time to train Mishka how to use it because she herself was in crisis and temporarily between homes and staying with her mom who does not want Mishka around. Shelby was on the verge of giving up her dog to the shelter and I could feel her emotional pain. Tears came down my face I could not control. So I told Shelby I would take Mishka and help her rehabilitate with the prosthetic leg while Shelby looked for a more permanent home. I did not really know how to rehab dog, but my inner guidance took over and it actually went really well. Mishka and I spent alot of time together and I worked with her to help her gain awareness of the prosthetic and I sent healing energy into her right side to help strengthen it since she did not use her right side. At the end of our time together Mishka started balancing and putting weight on her right side which she did not do before. Shelby also was magically "blessed" to find a new home for both of herself and Mishka at a home where dogs were loved and welcomed! So the universe somehow miraculous flowed in loving grace and I was able to be part of this unfolding.
Here's another example. I have many many examples of how I miraculously flow with the universe by being heart-centered and open to "serving others" in a fun, non-judgmental way. While I was playing with Mishka in the cul-de-sac, the neighbor's dog came to play with Miskha and then eventually the neighbor (who I rarely see) came out to checkout the 3 legged dog. I told my neighbor, Lori, the story, and she was so touched by my act of kindness. We talked about our sons who are both 14 years old. Laurie mentioned her son, Ty, got recently suspended from school because he got into fights with bullies and it wasn't his fault, he is "on the spectrum of autism" and doesn't regulate his emotions well. I told her (being guided by spirit to say so) that I would work with her son because I am a trained Hearthmath coach. She gladly accepted, so right that minute I spoke to Ty and asked him if I could meditate with him for a few minutes. Ty (feeling my loving non-judgmental energy) accepted and within 20 minutes he shifted and came out of his shell. Since then, we have had 5 sessions together and he is so much more happy and even got an "A" in math by using the meditation techniques I showed him. Now, Ty, is empowered and his soul has come on line. He loves tuning into his heart and feels more centered and in control of his emotions.
Another example, one of my tenants at a condo I own, Chris, keeps paying his rent late even though he is an employed electrician. I intuitively knew he was having addiction issues because when I talk to him he seems completely "out of it" and smelled of pot and alcohol and his eyes were cloudy and he seems defensive and belligerent. He also wouldn't let me inspect his room (I do safety inspections every few months). So I made a choice to approach the situation from a heart-centered perspective instead of exercising my legal right to evict him. I told him nicely that I want to listen to him and see if I can help him since I'm an energy healer. He softened and eventually after some coaxing let me see his room. It was horrendous. There was trash everywhere and empty beer bottles piled so high. He was hoarding trash in his room and was obviously spiraling out of control. Since I had much experience working with homeless people I knew that Chris was not going to be able to get another place to live if I evict him. The number one thing that can prevent homelessness, is to have someone actually CARE about others who are in crisis at the time they need it most. So I told him I would help him clean up his room and if he agreed to let me meditate and do energy healing with him, I would not evict him and give him a second chance. He felt my pure intention and non-judgment and he agreed without getting defensive. After only one healing session, Chris felt the energy move through his body and his eyes cleared up. He texted me yesterday that he would like another session tomorrow and he has "cut way back on drinking" already.
Here's another example (I can go on and on because I do this all the time). While I was in Vegas this past week, I walked by a homeless young woman. I always make eye contact with everyone I pass and bless them in my heart, this includes homeless people. Sometimes I give them a few dollars, sometimes they don't return my eye contract so I bless them and move on. With this woman, Brittany, I was guided to talk to her. I squatted down and got comfortable next to her and we talked. Thousands of Vegas vacationers walked by us without looking at her. Brittany says she has been homeless in Vegas after getting robbed while vacationing from Ogden, UT 18 months ago. She said she was tired of this homeless life and was ready to go home and patch things up with her estranged family but she doesn't have the $90 for the Greyhound bus ticket. My intuition told me she was telling the truth. Some homeless people do lie and say this so you give them more money, but in this case it was different. I told her I would take her in an Uber to the Greyhound station and buy her a ticket to Ogden, UT. She was over the moon with joy! We walked into the next casino (the Palazzo) to catch the Uber. Brittany said "they don't let me in the casino because I don't have ID". I knew that the security people judge homeless people and use this "let me see your ID" as a way to keep them out. I told her she was with me and they won't bother us, which they did not. The security guy was actually very helpful when I asked him directions on where to pick up the Uber. We made in the Uber and chatted and joked while in the car. I really enjoyed her company, she was my equal in every way and I treated her with kindness and respect. The Uber driver was so moved that he said "God bless you, Chi" when we got out at the Greyhound stations. These acts of kindness do not go unnoticed by others as we Starseeds shine our light upon the world. As we become "the change" others will shift and see that there is a new way to being and a new way of interacting with one another. Now Brittany is back home with her family and her journey continues and I know she is being blessed.
I can go on. These examples are only part of what I have done in the past few weeks, let alone what I have done and can continue to do in my life. What can YOU do to BE the change? How can I inspire you and help you?
I invite all Starseeds to join Joy Luck Club and see what we can do together to bring forth NEW earth together. Heaven is a state being my beloveds. Heaven is in the heart. I love you ALL and bless you on your journeys!
Sunday, March 31, 2019
Completion and Coming Full Circle
The equinox of March 19-21st was so energetically powerful, I received yet another massive download and expansion of consciousness. It keeps getting more incredibly intense. I'm wondering if the rest of the world "out there" is experiencing any of this 5D expansion and ascension/increase of creative powers through Oneness, Joy, and BLISS. But then I look at all the youtube videos uploaded during this same time and I see that I am not alone and others are getting these massive energies of love and bliss also. Times are certainly changing very quickly!
I have been going through this Rapture/Ascension process since my 2012 Awakening that escalated into an energy body activation in 2018 which really caused my "super human powers" to come on line and what that really means for the rest of humanity. This 7th year in 2019 is one of COMPLETION which means that all the little pieces of my journey are converging into the NOW moment and my soul's MISSION is coming into greater clarity.
This mission is the blooming of the sacred heart from within and then having that love pour out into the world at large and expressing myself in my own unique way without any more "holding back" or fear of failure or judgement. Can it be that simple? My mission on earth is the BE the real me and not apologize or suppress any part of me? And in doing this I will develop into a super human? I actually view myself as a NEW human of 5D earth. This is what I have transformed into with all the massive energy being downloaded into my body. It has evolved me into someone who can embody Oneness, Joy and Abundance both inside and outside. Someone able to heal themselves and live a life full of complete trust and love from/to ALL despite anything that may be presented in their reality that may be judged by others as a negative, difficult or even impossible -- I'm a walking MIRACLE, and so are YOU. Anything I can do, another human can do also in their own unique way. We are ALL equally powerful and full of LOVE/LIGHT from the ONE infinite creator that expresses in the ALL as YOU and ME. Anything our mind views as "other" than us is just a beautiful holographic 3D illusion that can be viewed as a lucid dream generated by our subconscious minds so we can PLAY the game of life and create MORE life for eternity.
This subconscious mind is nothing to fear even if at first it seems overwhelming that this powerful part of our being may be running amuk creating cancer, anxiety, and all sorts of mayhem in the world. The "journey" of the soul is to become more self ware of the subconscious mind and learn to LOVE ourselves enough to embrace ALL that we experience without judgement and resistance. This is The Way out of the prison that limits our conscious minds. Once the chains are broken and we start of "come back on line" as powerful creator beings and no longer be in "asleep" in the matrix.
Luckily there are many awakened souls like me on earth NOW that can show others the way through own our stories, experiences, and examples. We are not alone as we are all existing within the One mind. We can tap into this infinite source when we reach out towards one another. If we love others we are actually giving love to ourselves and this energy of love is the source of everything we experience in our world, good or bad. This is coming full circle NOW for me. I can now own my creative power and be aware of my subconscious mind's abilities to influence my reality. This part of the mind is vast, powerful, infinite. Since I'm no longer fighting my subconscious I can now co-create with it. I am now a WHOLE human being. Whatever I want, my WHOLE mind can and will create for me to experience. There are way-showers and healers all over the internet like Aaron Doughty and Lauren Galey. We are all here to help humanity wake up and become whole and complete.
All this led to my Joy Luck Club vision to spread Oneness, Joy, and Abundance by all using my mastery skills at Blackjack. Last week, 3/25-3/29, I took the show on the road and went to Las Vegas to experience my visions. I trusted my infinite mind to create this experience in my reality because I know how to co-create using my heart, mind and intention. Having a "pure heart" is key. This means going through all the healing and clearing process to remove any limiting and negative patterning in the body's energy field and the psyche. My Vegas trip went so incredibly well. I just stayed present to the moment and had an attitude of pure awe, joy and gratitude. I was able to heart connect with all the Uber drivers who drove me around the different casinos, the Blackjack dealers, wait staff, and other travelers and visitors. There were so many synchronicities that it was clear the universe was winking at me the whole time. I even won thousands of dollars, which is really just the material manifestation of my energetic vibration. It's true folks, if you are of pure heart and have a vibration of BLISS and unconditional love for self and others, you would realize you have already WON in life because you are ONE with ALL. Here's a picture of me with my winnings:
And here's a picture of my stack of chips during one of my winning sessions at Treasure Island Casino:
During this winning sessions, I meditated before each shuffle of a new double deck (the type of Blackjack I like to play most). The meditation tuned me into my own heart energy and I used my imagination to visualize the feeling of abundance, winning, joy, celebration and sharing. I was in a state of pure BLISS as I played. I bet for the dealer a couple of time each shoe so the dealer can share in my feelings of abundance. I also send love and gratitude to the universe and everyone around me. This heightened state of being caused me to start winning like crazy. I don't press my bets much, but when I sense the "love" energy and the cards start "behaving" nicely, I will go from $25 to $50 per bet. That's enough, because the minute I get "greedy" or "needy", I no longer feel abundance and the energy changes and I will start to lose instead of win. Having mastery over your emotions is the key to manifesting the WINs. Just sit back, relax and let the universe pay and don't worry about how much and when. Tune into the heart and generate bliss/love for self and others. This is how I roll baby!
My husband Jeff created a new website for me (JoyLuckClub777.com) and I made this video introduce my vision to the world
It's my intention to keep doing this and winning BIG by betting very little and keeping my focus on the BLISS. Then I plan on sharing this gift with the world through Joy Luck Club. This is a radically new approach to enlightenment. Instead of starting an ashram and asking people to sit and meditate and take a vow of poverty, I want people to know that they are truly abundance and the universe is only here to provide the playground for us as co-creators with God to experience joy and abundance! This is my truth that I easily manifest in my life and embody. My energy is stronger than ever and my mission is clear. To empower and share with those who resonate with my energy and my message. I'm going to use Blackjack as my creative expression, and a fun safe training tool for others who like the game, but also really want to connect with their inner power and be able to soar and fly on their own and create their own game board of life! Peace, love and blessings to you all!
I have been going through this Rapture/Ascension process since my 2012 Awakening that escalated into an energy body activation in 2018 which really caused my "super human powers" to come on line and what that really means for the rest of humanity. This 7th year in 2019 is one of COMPLETION which means that all the little pieces of my journey are converging into the NOW moment and my soul's MISSION is coming into greater clarity.
This mission is the blooming of the sacred heart from within and then having that love pour out into the world at large and expressing myself in my own unique way without any more "holding back" or fear of failure or judgement. Can it be that simple? My mission on earth is the BE the real me and not apologize or suppress any part of me? And in doing this I will develop into a super human? I actually view myself as a NEW human of 5D earth. This is what I have transformed into with all the massive energy being downloaded into my body. It has evolved me into someone who can embody Oneness, Joy and Abundance both inside and outside. Someone able to heal themselves and live a life full of complete trust and love from/to ALL despite anything that may be presented in their reality that may be judged by others as a negative, difficult or even impossible -- I'm a walking MIRACLE, and so are YOU. Anything I can do, another human can do also in their own unique way. We are ALL equally powerful and full of LOVE/LIGHT from the ONE infinite creator that expresses in the ALL as YOU and ME. Anything our mind views as "other" than us is just a beautiful holographic 3D illusion that can be viewed as a lucid dream generated by our subconscious minds so we can PLAY the game of life and create MORE life for eternity.
This subconscious mind is nothing to fear even if at first it seems overwhelming that this powerful part of our being may be running amuk creating cancer, anxiety, and all sorts of mayhem in the world. The "journey" of the soul is to become more self ware of the subconscious mind and learn to LOVE ourselves enough to embrace ALL that we experience without judgement and resistance. This is The Way out of the prison that limits our conscious minds. Once the chains are broken and we start of "come back on line" as powerful creator beings and no longer be in "asleep" in the matrix.
Luckily there are many awakened souls like me on earth NOW that can show others the way through own our stories, experiences, and examples. We are not alone as we are all existing within the One mind. We can tap into this infinite source when we reach out towards one another. If we love others we are actually giving love to ourselves and this energy of love is the source of everything we experience in our world, good or bad. This is coming full circle NOW for me. I can now own my creative power and be aware of my subconscious mind's abilities to influence my reality. This part of the mind is vast, powerful, infinite. Since I'm no longer fighting my subconscious I can now co-create with it. I am now a WHOLE human being. Whatever I want, my WHOLE mind can and will create for me to experience. There are way-showers and healers all over the internet like Aaron Doughty and Lauren Galey. We are all here to help humanity wake up and become whole and complete.
All this led to my Joy Luck Club vision to spread Oneness, Joy, and Abundance by all using my mastery skills at Blackjack. Last week, 3/25-3/29, I took the show on the road and went to Las Vegas to experience my visions. I trusted my infinite mind to create this experience in my reality because I know how to co-create using my heart, mind and intention. Having a "pure heart" is key. This means going through all the healing and clearing process to remove any limiting and negative patterning in the body's energy field and the psyche. My Vegas trip went so incredibly well. I just stayed present to the moment and had an attitude of pure awe, joy and gratitude. I was able to heart connect with all the Uber drivers who drove me around the different casinos, the Blackjack dealers, wait staff, and other travelers and visitors. There were so many synchronicities that it was clear the universe was winking at me the whole time. I even won thousands of dollars, which is really just the material manifestation of my energetic vibration. It's true folks, if you are of pure heart and have a vibration of BLISS and unconditional love for self and others, you would realize you have already WON in life because you are ONE with ALL. Here's a picture of me with my winnings:
My husband Jeff created a new website for me (JoyLuckClub777.com) and I made this video introduce my vision to the world
It's my intention to keep doing this and winning BIG by betting very little and keeping my focus on the BLISS. Then I plan on sharing this gift with the world through Joy Luck Club. This is a radically new approach to enlightenment. Instead of starting an ashram and asking people to sit and meditate and take a vow of poverty, I want people to know that they are truly abundance and the universe is only here to provide the playground for us as co-creators with God to experience joy and abundance! This is my truth that I easily manifest in my life and embody. My energy is stronger than ever and my mission is clear. To empower and share with those who resonate with my energy and my message. I'm going to use Blackjack as my creative expression, and a fun safe training tool for others who like the game, but also really want to connect with their inner power and be able to soar and fly on their own and create their own game board of life! Peace, love and blessings to you all!
Saturday, February 23, 2019
Joy Luck Club - my inspiration emerges!
First of all, let me say "WOW". These past few weeks have been so eye opening. More energy and expansion experiences, each wave penetrates me deeper into my own consciousness and psyche. We are so much more than we think we are folks. It goes so deep this SELF or consciousness that we are. I have experienced immense awareness of how we truly KNOW NOTHING about who we are and what we THINK we are changes constantly with our experiences. Enlightenment is never-ending and continually unraveling my experience of SELF to reveal so much that I can't begin put into words.
But, what I can put into words is "what's my next step". It's not easy finding a true purpose because I often feel a lack of interest in DOING and only want to let go of any need or desire and just BE. However, our souls will prompt us along like a movie on a filmstrip, we can not stay in the same frame and must play our part. The challenge is having the inspiration to move forward. If there is no inspiration, I will not move forward. I prefer to lounge around and bliss out. My inspiration came recently one day when I made a decision to stop asking what the next step is and to let go of any need to know anything. It left me with little else to DO but perhaps...PLAY?
So I played. We had a bunch of snow recently and I played and played in it like a little kid. We didn't have a sled, so I took my fitness twisting board to the park and it worked great! Up and down the snowy hills we went every which way and rolling and falling in all the glorious wonder!
During the indoor hours, I would deal Blackjack to myself. Then I started feeling certain energies at certain times which correlated to winning streaks and losing streaks. I would experience a FLOW during the winning streaks where I actually can tell the cards to come out a certain way and they actually start to do it! During these FLOW states, I feel very blissful. I then started tuning in and refining my interpretations (intuition) of these inner promptings and how they reflected the play cards reflected. I started getting really good at it and now I can raise my energy to trigger more winning streaks and fewer loosing streaks to a point where I'm literally winning over 90% of the time; my last 26 sessions have resulted in WINS. I was pretty lucky at Blackjack before but my win rate was closer to 70%. I have even been winning more at the casinos with real bets. I feel the same energy, sometimes even stronger because there are other people I can heart connect with and amplify the love energy.
I meditated on what all this means and started receiving more inner promptings from my soul. THIS was how I can help people by just being who I AM and doing what brings me joy. I can birth miracles when I AM in this creative state. I have evolved into what I have always dreamed: a really good psychic Blackjack player. Even though my professional background was finance/accounting it never really excited me. It was just a programmed choice offered me by society but it did not inspire me. I've always wanted to "hack reality" and become a psychic and influence games of chance. Deep down I knew as a little girl we were magical creatures. It's a secret wish that I have always carried in my heart and did not think to really talk about it because it's so "far out" and "wishful thinking" that I felt ashamed someone so left-brained and sensible like me would entertain such dreams. Then it dawned on me that our purpose in life is to follow our dreams. We all have our own unique dreams of what we want our best life experience to be like, each dream is beautiful and so uniquely you. It is only when you realize your dream experience that you become truly inspired and thus help others in a meaningful way. I would love to share this gift I have with the world. I started a new meetup called "Joy Luck Club".
I'm going to teach people who like to play Blackjack and are intuitively inclined how to play psychic Blackjack using techniques to raise their own energy and tap into this FLOW that I have discovered! This is way more fun than helping homeless people like I did before. I was able to let go of a lot of guilt I had within that made me feel like I was responsible for the suffering of others. This has accelerated my enlightenment! God does not judge me; only I judge me as unworthy. I had to really work on myself to let this old belief that I could only earn God's love if I was able to heal the world. Feelings of unworthiness ran very very deep in me. Finally letting go of all that dense heavy energy has made me so much more joyful. I AM actually now a more powerful co-creator and able to help others because I no longer feel responsible or obligated towards others. It's so amazing how the Universe really works versus how humans think. We are here to step into our own power. Trying to influence and "help" others out of pity or responsibility will only diminish our power because we are not trusting the Universe to support others on their journey. Oneness is about self empowerment, not about one person taking on the entire world. We must allow others to see the possibility of realizing their own power and worth by our own example. That's how we help. Otherwise we perpetuate the 3D never ending cycle of co-dependency, lack and judgement. It's time to move into a higher state of consciousness where we can see the Divine perfection in ALL.
But, what I can put into words is "what's my next step". It's not easy finding a true purpose because I often feel a lack of interest in DOING and only want to let go of any need or desire and just BE. However, our souls will prompt us along like a movie on a filmstrip, we can not stay in the same frame and must play our part. The challenge is having the inspiration to move forward. If there is no inspiration, I will not move forward. I prefer to lounge around and bliss out. My inspiration came recently one day when I made a decision to stop asking what the next step is and to let go of any need to know anything. It left me with little else to DO but perhaps...PLAY?
So I played. We had a bunch of snow recently and I played and played in it like a little kid. We didn't have a sled, so I took my fitness twisting board to the park and it worked great! Up and down the snowy hills we went every which way and rolling and falling in all the glorious wonder!
During the indoor hours, I would deal Blackjack to myself. Then I started feeling certain energies at certain times which correlated to winning streaks and losing streaks. I would experience a FLOW during the winning streaks where I actually can tell the cards to come out a certain way and they actually start to do it! During these FLOW states, I feel very blissful. I then started tuning in and refining my interpretations (intuition) of these inner promptings and how they reflected the play cards reflected. I started getting really good at it and now I can raise my energy to trigger more winning streaks and fewer loosing streaks to a point where I'm literally winning over 90% of the time; my last 26 sessions have resulted in WINS. I was pretty lucky at Blackjack before but my win rate was closer to 70%. I have even been winning more at the casinos with real bets. I feel the same energy, sometimes even stronger because there are other people I can heart connect with and amplify the love energy.
I meditated on what all this means and started receiving more inner promptings from my soul. THIS was how I can help people by just being who I AM and doing what brings me joy. I can birth miracles when I AM in this creative state. I have evolved into what I have always dreamed: a really good psychic Blackjack player. Even though my professional background was finance/accounting it never really excited me. It was just a programmed choice offered me by society but it did not inspire me. I've always wanted to "hack reality" and become a psychic and influence games of chance. Deep down I knew as a little girl we were magical creatures. It's a secret wish that I have always carried in my heart and did not think to really talk about it because it's so "far out" and "wishful thinking" that I felt ashamed someone so left-brained and sensible like me would entertain such dreams. Then it dawned on me that our purpose in life is to follow our dreams. We all have our own unique dreams of what we want our best life experience to be like, each dream is beautiful and so uniquely you. It is only when you realize your dream experience that you become truly inspired and thus help others in a meaningful way. I would love to share this gift I have with the world. I started a new meetup called "Joy Luck Club".
I'm going to teach people who like to play Blackjack and are intuitively inclined how to play psychic Blackjack using techniques to raise their own energy and tap into this FLOW that I have discovered! This is way more fun than helping homeless people like I did before. I was able to let go of a lot of guilt I had within that made me feel like I was responsible for the suffering of others. This has accelerated my enlightenment! God does not judge me; only I judge me as unworthy. I had to really work on myself to let this old belief that I could only earn God's love if I was able to heal the world. Feelings of unworthiness ran very very deep in me. Finally letting go of all that dense heavy energy has made me so much more joyful. I AM actually now a more powerful co-creator and able to help others because I no longer feel responsible or obligated towards others. It's so amazing how the Universe really works versus how humans think. We are here to step into our own power. Trying to influence and "help" others out of pity or responsibility will only diminish our power because we are not trusting the Universe to support others on their journey. Oneness is about self empowerment, not about one person taking on the entire world. We must allow others to see the possibility of realizing their own power and worth by our own example. That's how we help. Otherwise we perpetuate the 3D never ending cycle of co-dependency, lack and judgement. It's time to move into a higher state of consciousness where we can see the Divine perfection in ALL.
Thursday, January 24, 2019
Why am I here? What is my purpose?
To be a co-creator with God on planet earth and show others
how by sharing my story, by connecting, by BEING my true self.
If we are eternal beings how can we really loose anything or come into permanent harm? Don’t take this virtual reality on earth too seriously. Creation is for us to explore, learn, and enjoy. But our true nature is formless eternal spirit. We are only in our bodies for a short while, so we are not here to waste time worrying about anyone else or fixing the world. We are here to co-create and use God’s energy to create the life of our dreams and in doing so, we free others from their self-imposed limitations and lift them up by BEING who we truly are which is LIMITLESS!
What are the clues to my next step? What do I fantasize about? What are my dreams and yearnings? What feels
restricting to me and what feels liberating? I know I can shoot for the moon
because I am limitless but what is “the moon” to me? Everyone is
different. I have tried the outward efforts
(helping homeless people and making personal sacrifices to lift up others regardless
of whether they are really on board with it) but I have learned the hard way that
my soul doesn’t want to please anyone else or save the world. My soul really
wants to express itself fully as “spirit would if it was in a body” which means
my soul is very interested in what interests ME. Everything that went into creating ME has
been pure perfection. All of it. So if my purpose is not some altruistic pursuit
of good deeds, then what is it? I have
always wanted to have physic powers and create abundance with it. It’s my dream to do it for myself and show
others how to do it for themselves if they really want to. This includes health, wealth, and abundance. I want to demonstrate FAITH in the universe. I am not here to suffer. I am here to transcend all limitations. I am here to be LOVE, JOY, COMPASSION in
every moment through my own choice and actions.
God’s creation is brilliantly set up to bless us with all, so that of
our desires and dreams/wishes are magically fulfilled. God does this by creating limitless energy and
constantly pouring this creative energy into our beings while we are incarnated
on earth. Then it is up to us
individually to decide how to use this energy to make our wishes and dreams
come true. It is NOT true that we have to
live in lack, suffer in any way, or give all our material possessions away in
order to receive God’s blessings. We can
see, by expanding our consciousness, God’s reality in which there is no such thing
as lack. Humans create suffering and
lack with their limiting beliefs and buying into the negativity of mass
consciousness. Once we each awaken to
our true nature as spiritual beings that are connected to an infinite source of
creative energy, we become unstoppable.
We co-create anything we desire in perfect flow and harmony with everything
and everyone around us.
Material possessions are only manifestations of our
thoughts, beliefs, wishes, and desires.
If we lack material things that we really want it is only our perception
of lack; it is not reality. So how does
an individual soul use the limitless creative energy from God? We dream. We fantasize. We ponder. We experiment.
We interact. We connect. We visualize. We express through words, actions,
intention, and heart felt wishes. What
specifically we dream about is up to us.
The clues are in the data of our lives, our personal interests,
character traits, aptitudes, and outlook on life. I have always loved numbers, playing blackjack,
investing, talking to people, and now with my expanded awareness, I can use
these personal interests and skills to create with real POWER of MIND, or God’s
creative energy. The power is our natural
state of curiosity and adventure, like little children when they see a new play
ground. We explore and we play without
worrying about negative outcomes or any harm.
Children just go for it with gusto!
That’s the life affirming attitude that we must have to really step into
our creative power. So I’m going to
double-down on my dreams NOW. I have
more faith in myself now after all the intense purification I went through
during my 2018 kundalini awakening. The
first step in manifesting your dreams is to be clear, honest and uncompromising
in what you truly desire. You have to
embody the experience you want to create before actually experiencing it in
physicality. The physical part is the
last part of the body/mind system that transpires during the creative
process. The first part is to use your
imagination and create what you want to experience in your mind’s eye. I want to be the best physic blackjack player
that I can be. I am able now to feel the
energy of a blackjack table and transmute negative energy into pure love from
the angelic realm that flows through me as I am now an open door to Divine
energies. This transmission of love
energy allows me and everyone at the blackjack table to win consistently. In my imagination, I foresee incredibly miraculous
success playing with the love energy. This
will eventually capture the interest of others who will wonder “how does she
win so consistently”. Then I will show
others how to apply a winning mindset to their own lives and creative interests.
I’m trusting the universe completely to out
picture my dream into physical reality in the most genius and delightful way. I don’t need to get all the nuts and bolts in
place. I just need to be the director,
the dreamer of my virtual reality.
Remember, it’s all happening in the ONE MIND. Reality is a play of vibrating light
particles! This MIND is genius and it
knows how to “compute” the highest outcome possible for you to experience and
enjoy!
I define success as an inner confidence and peace that is
not dependent on external outcomes. To
be able to do what you love in life and prosper from it is the ultimate success
story. It has nothing to do with an
external standard. I don’t compare myself to others because that is self-defeating
thinking. Another gotcha to be aware of
is being attached to the outcome. As I
stated in my previous blog posts on co-creating with the universe, it is only
through self-love that we become our most powerful self. This means that if things don’t go your way
or someone else seems to have more success than you do, it is only an opportunity
to re-charge, and keep on trying without letting self-doubt creep into your
mind. Allow the fearful thoughts of
failure to enter your mind, but don’t let it linger long. Remember, you do not have to define yourself
by your thoughts or beliefs. You are
MORE. Brush yourself off and use the set backs as a chance to love yourself
even more. So many people give up on
themselves when faced with failure. Self-mastery
is about relentless faith and trust in the universe.
If we are eternal beings how can we really loose anything or come into permanent harm? Don’t take this virtual reality on earth too seriously. Creation is for us to explore, learn, and enjoy. But our true nature is formless eternal spirit. We are only in our bodies for a short while, so we are not here to waste time worrying about anyone else or fixing the world. We are here to co-create and use God’s energy to create the life of our dreams and in doing so, we free others from their self-imposed limitations and lift them up by BEING who we truly are which is LIMITLESS!
Sunday, January 13, 2019
Why does God allow all the suffering, disease and atrocities?
This is a HUGE mental block for humans. We can't understand why everywhere we look there is suffering and drama. We can't accept that we do it to ourselves; that it is ALL self inflicted. This is because we are in separation, which is the illusion of the dark 3D holographic earth. The only part of the population that seems truly happy are under 10 years old who still have some innocence in them. Then life (the programming of the 3D matrix) snuffs the light of innocence out of us with all the negativity, the "should's" the "what if's" and the "watch out for".
Our world is a holographic training simulation for souls to learn how to transcend suffering and return to LOVE. We don't remember this while we are in our bodies because that is the purpose of the dense and dark 3D reality. It doesn't allow enough Divine light in to enable souls to remember their true origin which is formless pure awareness that is spirit, that is of God. This world is a TEMPORARY play-pen for souls to explore any and all mental constructs about self and be able to act out all these constructs in a SELF contained simulation that seems real but is not real, and not permanent. It is a FREE WILL simulation. It's a matrix of illusion that seems REAL to our senses. So all the nasty suffering is temporary and will end once we LET GO and return to the light of pure awareness, of spirit.
It takes real transformation from within to truly "get it" and understand, accept, forgive, and love God's creation, which is really US (you, me, them, all that ever was and ever will be). I do have compassion for those of you who don't get it yet. Who are still stuck in the 3D matrix of separation and duality. I was there 7 years ago and it wasn't easy living a life of angst, not feeling comfortable with what was happening in my world and not knowing the real purpose of life and why we are here. It seemed everyone was just in SURVIVAL mode and not fully ALIVE with joy, with LIFE.
Those who are not awake don't remember their true origins so they think this is all there is and there is nothing MORE to life. There is a sense of pointlessness and helplessness, especially when we get older and our bodies start succumbing to illness, depression, dis-ease from a years and years of not "getting it." We are unable to truly love unconditionally and our relationships become dysfunctional and toxic. Either way there is suffering until we wake up and remember why we are here. Waking up means healing and becoming WHOLE again. Healing the core wound of separation from Source/God. When I first woke up, I was SO ANGRY that God had allowed me to FALL asleep in the matrix. I literally broke down and threw a tantrum like a 2 year old child because I was so upset that God left me alone in this horrible world where no one seems to know who they really are and they unconsciously cause so much harm and hurt towards themselves and others. I cried and screamed for over an hour until there was nothing left inside me; I became EMPTY. Then the love of God slowly filled me back up with such intense unconditional love. I became whole again. Then the illumination happened and my memory started coming back to me and I remembered God's plan and that I was 100% complicit in that plan.
I wanted to embody on earth so I could experience the MIRACLE of separation. In spirit we are all One. It is not possible to be separate from God. So this 3D matrix is a miracle. Because only in experiencing the illusion of separation and then AWAKENING to my true spiritual nature did I really fully understand my own capacity to LOVE and FORGIVE. If nothing "bad" ever happens to me I would not know how to truly LOVE myself back into balance. I would not have soul wisdom. This wisdom keeps expanding as my consciousness and self awareness expands. I can use this wisdom to help others out of their own self created suffering but also I can now co-create with God how I want my world to BE. I can see with the eyes of spirit and make choices that are based on Oneness and not separation, which is to choose LOVE instead of FEAR.
This journey is not done in one lifetime. It takes many thousands of incarnations to fully traverse the 3D matrix until the soul finally "gets it". I call it "running the gauntlet of separation". Do not feel disheartened that you are not yet awake and feel the bliss, freedom and joy that I do. It's a beautiful journey once you understand and have some tools and guidance from way-showers like me.
Evil (or suffering) exists only in this 3D matrix of illusion. It doesn't exist beyond it because there is only Oneness in reality. So evil is illusion; it needs to have an opposite (called "good") for it to exist. In Oneness there is no opposite. The angelic realm that exists beyond our 3D matrix is based on Oneness so it is not possible to feel anything but BLISS in the angelic realm. This illusion we are in is a very realistic one when you are on earth where there is child abuse, war, holocausts, cruelty, hatred and despair. The evil is created by souls who exercise their FREE WILL by refusing to grow up and return to LOVE. This is allowed only in the 3D matrix. These souls are not allowed to graduate from the 3D matrix until they return to LOVE. We can exercise our free will by choosing LOVE and transcend the suffering and get the HELL out of Dodge, our of the 3D matrix. This escape hatch is through the heart. It is activated by self love which triggers the journey HOME. We don't have to hang out here with all the evil souls who reject the light and want to pull us into their own self created hell. And this ascension to 5D (exiting the 3D matrix) is not a location "up there" in the sky. It is a higher consciousness that experiences LIFE through Oneness, unity, LOVE. It is a state of heaven on earth where I AM. Why don't you join me, the PEACE is beyond human understanding and you won't ever want to return to the old way of being.
That is the good news. It's going to be tough for many of us who can't LET GO and FORGIVE. So many of us can not accept that wars, the holocaust, child rape should be allowed. That was why the evil souls rejected the light of God. They did not want to allow free will and therefore allow ANYTHING to occur based on free will. So they used their creative energies to create more suffering so prove that free will is a flawed plan. But as I stated in my previous blog post, God does not make mistakes. Free will is genius because it allows us to learn from our poor choices. There are universal laws that can not be circumvented. These laws keep destructive actions in check because "what we put out we get right back". These evil souls are in torment because their choices have blocked their own light and disconnects them from PURE LOVE which is so amazingly wonderful and beyond anything this 3D matrix has to offer. The only way they can be redeemed is by LETTING GO of their need to control other humans by hurting them. Sticks and stones may break your bones, but don't let them turn you into a helpless victim or a vengeful renegade. You have choice to react in a higher way. The evil ones want you to fight back and take on a crusade to end all human suffering. This keeps your soul stuck in the 3D matrix for a long long time until you finally LET GO of the epic battle between good and evil and your return back to the light. The only way to end human suffering is to FORGIVE and see through their drama ploys. You can NEVER have true inner peace if you keep trying to change the world "out there" and try to make everyone else behave nicely. You can only save yourself and BE the change; shine your soul light so others can see that there is another way.
I also mentioned that there are no victims. So the child rape, murder or genocide that humans commit against other humans can be transcended and forgiven. YES, breathe that in folks. You can forgive it and LET GO and move back into the light. The evil souls don't want you to forgive. They want you to stay in torment like they are. They want to prove God was wrong for giving us free will. They want us to be flawless robots without any creative power or true wisdom. Don't fall for it. You are MORE.
It's difficult for me to explain to someone who had not awaken why they are not a victim and that their suffering is all in their heads. They are letting all the negativity energies suck them into the drama. How can your suffering be in your head when you are a child that is being raped or tortured or even murdered? Let alone the "victims" of the holocaust and genocide?
Take a deep breath with me here. Suspend your attachments to your body, your mind, your role, your human identity. YOU ARE NOT ANY OF THOSE. You are pure awareness (consciousness), spirit. You are me. I AM you. We ARE ONE. We are the body of God. We don't have to suffer anymore. It's time to take full responsibility for our lives and leave behind victim-hood, and the knee jerk reactions to "do something" to fight against or change what is "out there". It's not what happens to you that matters, it is how you react to what happens to you. Do you fight evil, or do you see through the illusion and start looking within your heart?
Take another deep breath with me NOW. It is and has always been the lack of self awareness that has caused humans to fall deep into the darkness. When you think you are your body, your role, your ethnicity, your human, you will suffer and you will become a victim or a perpetrator. When Jesus (and I am not religious in any way) who was an enlightened master, embodied on earth to be a way-shower by His example, He knew that the evil ones (the ones who reject the light) would kill his body. It did not stop Him from speaking his Truth. He did not come here to fight evil. He came here to show that evil should not be judged or resisted because it is ultimately illusion. Evil needs an opponent to exist, if we don't give any energy to or against it, then it will dissolve from our reality. We are not our bodies. He can let the physical body die or be abused or tortured without attachment or identification with it. Physical death is not the end of the soul. What did Jesus say on the cross? "Father forgive them for they know not what they do."
Can you do that? Can you give them too? Your salvation depends on your ability to look away from all the trauma and drama of the 3D matrix and FORGIVE it and LET GO.
You might ask (because you are still stuck in separation) if we turn the other cheek with the evil ones, what happens to them? Well, they are stuck in separation (or hell) like you are until they stop asking about what those others are doing. Stick to your own salvation and leave the judgement to God's perfect plan. The evil ones serve a wonderful purpose in tormenting you until you stop playing their game and AWAKEN. They will keep putting the screws to you until you LET GO. The blind can not lead the blind out of hell. So get yourself out of hell first by looking only to the light within. Then you will see only the light of God and perfection in ALL.
Come back into the light of God. It is all a play of lights. It is all for LOVE, all of it. Your existence is a miracle. You are a miracle. Why waste your life focusing on illusions when you can BE MORE NOW. My love and blessings to you ALL on your journeys of SELF discovery.
Our world is a holographic training simulation for souls to learn how to transcend suffering and return to LOVE. We don't remember this while we are in our bodies because that is the purpose of the dense and dark 3D reality. It doesn't allow enough Divine light in to enable souls to remember their true origin which is formless pure awareness that is spirit, that is of God. This world is a TEMPORARY play-pen for souls to explore any and all mental constructs about self and be able to act out all these constructs in a SELF contained simulation that seems real but is not real, and not permanent. It is a FREE WILL simulation. It's a matrix of illusion that seems REAL to our senses. So all the nasty suffering is temporary and will end once we LET GO and return to the light of pure awareness, of spirit.
It takes real transformation from within to truly "get it" and understand, accept, forgive, and love God's creation, which is really US (you, me, them, all that ever was and ever will be). I do have compassion for those of you who don't get it yet. Who are still stuck in the 3D matrix of separation and duality. I was there 7 years ago and it wasn't easy living a life of angst, not feeling comfortable with what was happening in my world and not knowing the real purpose of life and why we are here. It seemed everyone was just in SURVIVAL mode and not fully ALIVE with joy, with LIFE.
Those who are not awake don't remember their true origins so they think this is all there is and there is nothing MORE to life. There is a sense of pointlessness and helplessness, especially when we get older and our bodies start succumbing to illness, depression, dis-ease from a years and years of not "getting it." We are unable to truly love unconditionally and our relationships become dysfunctional and toxic. Either way there is suffering until we wake up and remember why we are here. Waking up means healing and becoming WHOLE again. Healing the core wound of separation from Source/God. When I first woke up, I was SO ANGRY that God had allowed me to FALL asleep in the matrix. I literally broke down and threw a tantrum like a 2 year old child because I was so upset that God left me alone in this horrible world where no one seems to know who they really are and they unconsciously cause so much harm and hurt towards themselves and others. I cried and screamed for over an hour until there was nothing left inside me; I became EMPTY. Then the love of God slowly filled me back up with such intense unconditional love. I became whole again. Then the illumination happened and my memory started coming back to me and I remembered God's plan and that I was 100% complicit in that plan.
I wanted to embody on earth so I could experience the MIRACLE of separation. In spirit we are all One. It is not possible to be separate from God. So this 3D matrix is a miracle. Because only in experiencing the illusion of separation and then AWAKENING to my true spiritual nature did I really fully understand my own capacity to LOVE and FORGIVE. If nothing "bad" ever happens to me I would not know how to truly LOVE myself back into balance. I would not have soul wisdom. This wisdom keeps expanding as my consciousness and self awareness expands. I can use this wisdom to help others out of their own self created suffering but also I can now co-create with God how I want my world to BE. I can see with the eyes of spirit and make choices that are based on Oneness and not separation, which is to choose LOVE instead of FEAR.
This journey is not done in one lifetime. It takes many thousands of incarnations to fully traverse the 3D matrix until the soul finally "gets it". I call it "running the gauntlet of separation". Do not feel disheartened that you are not yet awake and feel the bliss, freedom and joy that I do. It's a beautiful journey once you understand and have some tools and guidance from way-showers like me.
Evil (or suffering) exists only in this 3D matrix of illusion. It doesn't exist beyond it because there is only Oneness in reality. So evil is illusion; it needs to have an opposite (called "good") for it to exist. In Oneness there is no opposite. The angelic realm that exists beyond our 3D matrix is based on Oneness so it is not possible to feel anything but BLISS in the angelic realm. This illusion we are in is a very realistic one when you are on earth where there is child abuse, war, holocausts, cruelty, hatred and despair. The evil is created by souls who exercise their FREE WILL by refusing to grow up and return to LOVE. This is allowed only in the 3D matrix. These souls are not allowed to graduate from the 3D matrix until they return to LOVE. We can exercise our free will by choosing LOVE and transcend the suffering and get the HELL out of Dodge, our of the 3D matrix. This escape hatch is through the heart. It is activated by self love which triggers the journey HOME. We don't have to hang out here with all the evil souls who reject the light and want to pull us into their own self created hell. And this ascension to 5D (exiting the 3D matrix) is not a location "up there" in the sky. It is a higher consciousness that experiences LIFE through Oneness, unity, LOVE. It is a state of heaven on earth where I AM. Why don't you join me, the PEACE is beyond human understanding and you won't ever want to return to the old way of being.
That is the good news. It's going to be tough for many of us who can't LET GO and FORGIVE. So many of us can not accept that wars, the holocaust, child rape should be allowed. That was why the evil souls rejected the light of God. They did not want to allow free will and therefore allow ANYTHING to occur based on free will. So they used their creative energies to create more suffering so prove that free will is a flawed plan. But as I stated in my previous blog post, God does not make mistakes. Free will is genius because it allows us to learn from our poor choices. There are universal laws that can not be circumvented. These laws keep destructive actions in check because "what we put out we get right back". These evil souls are in torment because their choices have blocked their own light and disconnects them from PURE LOVE which is so amazingly wonderful and beyond anything this 3D matrix has to offer. The only way they can be redeemed is by LETTING GO of their need to control other humans by hurting them. Sticks and stones may break your bones, but don't let them turn you into a helpless victim or a vengeful renegade. You have choice to react in a higher way. The evil ones want you to fight back and take on a crusade to end all human suffering. This keeps your soul stuck in the 3D matrix for a long long time until you finally LET GO of the epic battle between good and evil and your return back to the light. The only way to end human suffering is to FORGIVE and see through their drama ploys. You can NEVER have true inner peace if you keep trying to change the world "out there" and try to make everyone else behave nicely. You can only save yourself and BE the change; shine your soul light so others can see that there is another way.
I also mentioned that there are no victims. So the child rape, murder or genocide that humans commit against other humans can be transcended and forgiven. YES, breathe that in folks. You can forgive it and LET GO and move back into the light. The evil souls don't want you to forgive. They want you to stay in torment like they are. They want to prove God was wrong for giving us free will. They want us to be flawless robots without any creative power or true wisdom. Don't fall for it. You are MORE.
It's difficult for me to explain to someone who had not awaken why they are not a victim and that their suffering is all in their heads. They are letting all the negativity energies suck them into the drama. How can your suffering be in your head when you are a child that is being raped or tortured or even murdered? Let alone the "victims" of the holocaust and genocide?
Take a deep breath with me here. Suspend your attachments to your body, your mind, your role, your human identity. YOU ARE NOT ANY OF THOSE. You are pure awareness (consciousness), spirit. You are me. I AM you. We ARE ONE. We are the body of God. We don't have to suffer anymore. It's time to take full responsibility for our lives and leave behind victim-hood, and the knee jerk reactions to "do something" to fight against or change what is "out there". It's not what happens to you that matters, it is how you react to what happens to you. Do you fight evil, or do you see through the illusion and start looking within your heart?
Take another deep breath with me NOW. It is and has always been the lack of self awareness that has caused humans to fall deep into the darkness. When you think you are your body, your role, your ethnicity, your human, you will suffer and you will become a victim or a perpetrator. When Jesus (and I am not religious in any way) who was an enlightened master, embodied on earth to be a way-shower by His example, He knew that the evil ones (the ones who reject the light) would kill his body. It did not stop Him from speaking his Truth. He did not come here to fight evil. He came here to show that evil should not be judged or resisted because it is ultimately illusion. Evil needs an opponent to exist, if we don't give any energy to or against it, then it will dissolve from our reality. We are not our bodies. He can let the physical body die or be abused or tortured without attachment or identification with it. Physical death is not the end of the soul. What did Jesus say on the cross? "Father forgive them for they know not what they do."
Can you do that? Can you give them too? Your salvation depends on your ability to look away from all the trauma and drama of the 3D matrix and FORGIVE it and LET GO.
You might ask (because you are still stuck in separation) if we turn the other cheek with the evil ones, what happens to them? Well, they are stuck in separation (or hell) like you are until they stop asking about what those others are doing. Stick to your own salvation and leave the judgement to God's perfect plan. The evil ones serve a wonderful purpose in tormenting you until you stop playing their game and AWAKEN. They will keep putting the screws to you until you LET GO. The blind can not lead the blind out of hell. So get yourself out of hell first by looking only to the light within. Then you will see only the light of God and perfection in ALL.
Come back into the light of God. It is all a play of lights. It is all for LOVE, all of it. Your existence is a miracle. You are a miracle. Why waste your life focusing on illusions when you can BE MORE NOW. My love and blessings to you ALL on your journeys of SELF discovery.
Friday, January 11, 2019
Further down the rabbit hole we go
The most mind blowing revelation during my 2012 awakening was "there is only ONE of us here", and the reality I experience was happening within this ONE and that there is nothing "out there" all was an inner experience, even physical reality is an inner experience. This initially plunged me into a huge identity crisis because Who Am I really if there is no real physical reality? Then during my 2018 awakening, the most significant revelation was "God does not make mistakes." Period. And this means I AM not a mistake, not a miserable flawed sinner doomed to suffer in darkness.
I AM NOW tasked with trying to integrate what these revelations mean in my life and create a NEW life for myself that does not have the OLD mentality of limitations and suffering. What is the purpose of life if it is all happening within this ONE consciousness and if am not an objective human body on an objective physical earth in real space and time?
Just a side note for those who think I am on an acid trip, think again. Quantum physics has proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is no way the objective physical world exists "out there". Try watching this video on how this works. It is all a play of lights...vibrating particles of light. Your body and world feels real because your 3D senses are all that you know and are familiar with and you have been pre-programmed to experience it as real. All is happening within MIND. Both our individual human minds and the ONE mind, which encompasses ALL human minds as part of and inseparable from ONE. I love this video with Rick Paris (a shaman who underwent an amazing near death experience). He explains the whole holographic illusion of earth, quantum realities, creation of reality using the mind, it's so awesome, and very true as I have personally discovered through my own visceral experience. Open your minds to NEW possibilities folks, take the RED PILL and come further down the rabbit hole with me.
Who I AM is pure awareness. I do have an incarnation (an experience of a body playing various roles within the 3D holographic matrix). Pure awareness is spirit. It is (I AM) formless, ineffable, limitless. It is consciousness. This spirit is of God. It is God as far as we humans can "explain" what God is. It is the Source, the energy of Creation, that we ALL are because we are self-aware, we exists, we feel, we think, we breathe, we are Creation in our totality.
People who are stuck "in the Matrix" as the movie so cleverly eludes to are under a control program of 3D earth. This program is a "school of hard knocks" simulation for souls, which are unique creations of formless spirit to allow God to experience it's Creation and expand the individualized expressions of itself (me and you) so we can learn how to co-create with our minds in a way that is in alignment with LOVE and COMPASSION. The 3D matrix is not designed to keep souls trapped forever. It is meant to be transcended. That's why in this time on earth, there is a mass awakening and evolution of human consciousness. I'm not the first to awaken these past 7 years. There are many, thousands. Soon it will be hundreds of thousands leaving the old matrix. Some go through near death experiences, some like me experience spontaneous awakenings, some are really stubborn and will experience major life changing crisis (the punches in the face), and some are just born with a wisdom (like many children these days) that allows them to remember their TRUE nature. You know these children, they have a mind of their own and do NOT allow themselves to be programmed by society. They speak from their hearts and you can not suppress their light and make them conform to societal norms.
The older folks like me, we are in "sleep" mode and have to learn through difficult and challenging life experiences to LET GO and SURRENDER to the perfection of Creation which does not make mistakes. How many times does life have to literally punch you in the face before you wake up? And why does life tend to punch us in the face? Because we refuse to wake up and step into our power. For eons, humanity has been suppressed within the 3D matrix, which allows us to "act out" our free will powers in a "play pen" for souls. We get to experience an epic battle between good and evil until we are tired of it. It's like children playing in a sandbox building castles and having make believe battles. Then comes a time when some yearning is triggered within the soul when it starts seeking for the way out of the matrix, the way HOME.
HOME is not a location. It is in the heart. The dormant seed of spirit lives within our holographic hearts. It contains a homing signal that guides us back into the light away from the dark matrix. Humanity is learning and growing up. We have made it this far without blowing ourselves up (with a lot of angelic help). And yes, there is still plenty of suffering. But this is not a mistake. It is a choice to suffer. Our ignorance and attachments to the "realness" of this hologram causes our own suffering. Until we make a conscious choice to see beyond our limited roles within the matrix, we can not leave it behind. Look to the children. They know the way out. Their eyes are full of God, full of innocence that we grown ups "think" we have lost. It is the thinking that we are less and limited that strips us of our mind power to create a heavenly world. This thinking is just thinking. It can be redirected, re-programmed. Don't blame society or your parents for programming you into a neurotic self-doubting Prozac popping basket case. Just forgive them for they know not what they do. Brush yourself off and realize you are more than your holographic reality. Take your power back. Exit the matrix and come HOME NOW.
I hear your thoughts already. You feel a quickening, maybe it's true, maybe you are MORE. But there's an incredibly strong pull to fall back asleep in the matrix because it is familiar. There is so much FEAR in you. The unknown and the NEW is very scary. Even with all the self-created drama and trauma you can't let go. You want to stay in victimhood or keep up the epic fight against some "external" cause that is only going on in your head. You want to band with the masses, the other people in your circle or in the world with the same mentality. The pain, apathy and hopelessness is part of you and has become your identity. I assure you it is not your true identity. Everything in your life that defines you is a holographic illusion and you cling desperately to it. Like I said, God does not make mistakes. The 3D matrix is not a forever situation. It is crumbling and dissolving quickly. Just observe it and you will see all the dark energies of chaos throwing a tissy-fit because the 5D energies are exposing them as dysfunctional, comical and impotent. News stories of people getting stabbled or beheaded can only be scary if people are actually tunning into it. But honestly, are we all a little tired of tuning into the horror and drama? It's a hologram that is like a B-rated horror movie. It's not worth watching folks. The fear mongering no longer works on the people because consciousness is catching onto the illusions. No the earth is not going to blow up. What is crumbling are old systems that have been reinforcing the experience of powerlessness. God's plan is one of redemption and salvation. No this is not about some religious crusade, that is soooo old school. Let's move past that trap shall we. It is about the truth of YOU. Who are you really?
I promise you if you venture down the rabbit hole you will find out how glorious and powerful you really are. And yes, you will have to let go of many limiting beliefs to realize your true potential and venture into the unknown. Luckily for you, there are many thousands of trailblazers that have gone ahead and progressed into the 5D existence, which is one of PEACE, UNITY, HARMONY, WISDOM, MIRACLES and LOVE.
Here's is God's plan for heaven on earth, or what we awakened ones call 5D existence:
Like the 100th monkey scenario, a core, yet small population (which can easily include YOU) wakes up to their true nature as spirit by connecting with their heart and opening WIDE enough to receive the Holy Spirit of transformation (unconditional love). Then start the journey of awakening in their own unique way, by shedding all the limiting mental constructs. Then more light will illuminate your mind and body which heals all mental and physical illness, which are really caused by all the trauma and drama that we hold onto unconsciously. We then become AWAKE in the holographic reality like the Buddha, like Jesus, and many other masters who have walked on earth to show The Way, The Truth and The Life. We glow with peace and compassion and extend unconditional love to all as peaceful warriors of light; we are wise as serpents (no one can fool us back to sleep) and harmless as doves (no one can fight against us because they feel our love and non-judgement which is like a balm to their souls).
We also receive Divine assistance in helping and healing others with our energy which now flows directly from Source/God. The flows is intense and strong because we no longer have limiting mental constructs that block the flow of LIFE energy into our minds and bodies. The pure love and bliss we feel changes us from the inside out. We no longer have angst or fear inside so our minds are clear and calm. We go from SURVIVAL mode to CREATIVE mode, like the very imaginative and fun Minecraft video game that millions love to play. And PLAY we shall because removing all the baggage from our system allows us the feel PURE and innocent as little children again. We will play and co-create a new earth. We play with energy, we co-create with energy, we heal with energy, we are NOW energy beings no longer limited to just the physical material expression of the 3D matrix. We create, we SHARE all resources generously, we no longer buy into the lack and fear mentalities of old earth. We facilitate the crumbling of old earth by our choices. Awakened ones are not hanging out at the mall buying stuff or outwardly consuming material things. Have you noticed the fall in the stock market especially with retail stocks, gas prices, airlines, hotels. The economy is changing, consumption is changing. Less is MORE NOW. Why be materialistic and consume stuff and compete with the Jones next store like our parents did when we can sit in meditation and receive incredible BLISS and inspiration for all our creative impulses that are simply genius and beyond anything the material world has to offer?
The wisdom of the soul will flow through with MORE and MORE insights, solutions, revelations that will uplift everyone in our lives and eventually our world! Oh yes, the pure genius the flows from spirit that will express itself has NEW inventions, and new ways to collaborating with others from the heart that will heal our world. It's all coming folks. Health and aging will also take quantum leaps. With more Divine energy in our mind and body, we will experience longer healthier lifespans that will not degenerate with age like the old 3D matrix of darkness and limited light. Our 5D children will be born with inherent wisdom and remember their spiritual nature. These children will become future leaders and visionaries that will bring forth peace and prosperity that we can not even begin to imagine. There is more than just hope for the future, we have made it past the 2012 milestone without blowing up the world. This new 5D energy is finally here and we have more than earned our place in the cosmos as an evolved species ready to take flight into the UNKNOWN.
You can join the party or stay asleep in the matrix and not feel or experience anything new. It's your free will choice what or how you want to create with your consciousness. We are all equally loved, equally worthy, equally gifted and endowed with God's limitless creative power no matter if we choose to experience it or reject it.
Isn't that a wonderful vision for humanity's future? All my blog posts are channeled from spirit, my soul's light. This is my highest TRUTH and Divine blessing to ALL.
I AM NOW tasked with trying to integrate what these revelations mean in my life and create a NEW life for myself that does not have the OLD mentality of limitations and suffering. What is the purpose of life if it is all happening within this ONE consciousness and if am not an objective human body on an objective physical earth in real space and time?
Just a side note for those who think I am on an acid trip, think again. Quantum physics has proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is no way the objective physical world exists "out there". Try watching this video on how this works. It is all a play of lights...vibrating particles of light. Your body and world feels real because your 3D senses are all that you know and are familiar with and you have been pre-programmed to experience it as real. All is happening within MIND. Both our individual human minds and the ONE mind, which encompasses ALL human minds as part of and inseparable from ONE. I love this video with Rick Paris (a shaman who underwent an amazing near death experience). He explains the whole holographic illusion of earth, quantum realities, creation of reality using the mind, it's so awesome, and very true as I have personally discovered through my own visceral experience. Open your minds to NEW possibilities folks, take the RED PILL and come further down the rabbit hole with me.
Who I AM is pure awareness. I do have an incarnation (an experience of a body playing various roles within the 3D holographic matrix). Pure awareness is spirit. It is (I AM) formless, ineffable, limitless. It is consciousness. This spirit is of God. It is God as far as we humans can "explain" what God is. It is the Source, the energy of Creation, that we ALL are because we are self-aware, we exists, we feel, we think, we breathe, we are Creation in our totality.
People who are stuck "in the Matrix" as the movie so cleverly eludes to are under a control program of 3D earth. This program is a "school of hard knocks" simulation for souls, which are unique creations of formless spirit to allow God to experience it's Creation and expand the individualized expressions of itself (me and you) so we can learn how to co-create with our minds in a way that is in alignment with LOVE and COMPASSION. The 3D matrix is not designed to keep souls trapped forever. It is meant to be transcended. That's why in this time on earth, there is a mass awakening and evolution of human consciousness. I'm not the first to awaken these past 7 years. There are many, thousands. Soon it will be hundreds of thousands leaving the old matrix. Some go through near death experiences, some like me experience spontaneous awakenings, some are really stubborn and will experience major life changing crisis (the punches in the face), and some are just born with a wisdom (like many children these days) that allows them to remember their TRUE nature. You know these children, they have a mind of their own and do NOT allow themselves to be programmed by society. They speak from their hearts and you can not suppress their light and make them conform to societal norms.
The older folks like me, we are in "sleep" mode and have to learn through difficult and challenging life experiences to LET GO and SURRENDER to the perfection of Creation which does not make mistakes. How many times does life have to literally punch you in the face before you wake up? And why does life tend to punch us in the face? Because we refuse to wake up and step into our power. For eons, humanity has been suppressed within the 3D matrix, which allows us to "act out" our free will powers in a "play pen" for souls. We get to experience an epic battle between good and evil until we are tired of it. It's like children playing in a sandbox building castles and having make believe battles. Then comes a time when some yearning is triggered within the soul when it starts seeking for the way out of the matrix, the way HOME.
HOME is not a location. It is in the heart. The dormant seed of spirit lives within our holographic hearts. It contains a homing signal that guides us back into the light away from the dark matrix. Humanity is learning and growing up. We have made it this far without blowing ourselves up (with a lot of angelic help). And yes, there is still plenty of suffering. But this is not a mistake. It is a choice to suffer. Our ignorance and attachments to the "realness" of this hologram causes our own suffering. Until we make a conscious choice to see beyond our limited roles within the matrix, we can not leave it behind. Look to the children. They know the way out. Their eyes are full of God, full of innocence that we grown ups "think" we have lost. It is the thinking that we are less and limited that strips us of our mind power to create a heavenly world. This thinking is just thinking. It can be redirected, re-programmed. Don't blame society or your parents for programming you into a neurotic self-doubting Prozac popping basket case. Just forgive them for they know not what they do. Brush yourself off and realize you are more than your holographic reality. Take your power back. Exit the matrix and come HOME NOW.
I hear your thoughts already. You feel a quickening, maybe it's true, maybe you are MORE. But there's an incredibly strong pull to fall back asleep in the matrix because it is familiar. There is so much FEAR in you. The unknown and the NEW is very scary. Even with all the self-created drama and trauma you can't let go. You want to stay in victimhood or keep up the epic fight against some "external" cause that is only going on in your head. You want to band with the masses, the other people in your circle or in the world with the same mentality. The pain, apathy and hopelessness is part of you and has become your identity. I assure you it is not your true identity. Everything in your life that defines you is a holographic illusion and you cling desperately to it. Like I said, God does not make mistakes. The 3D matrix is not a forever situation. It is crumbling and dissolving quickly. Just observe it and you will see all the dark energies of chaos throwing a tissy-fit because the 5D energies are exposing them as dysfunctional, comical and impotent. News stories of people getting stabbled or beheaded can only be scary if people are actually tunning into it. But honestly, are we all a little tired of tuning into the horror and drama? It's a hologram that is like a B-rated horror movie. It's not worth watching folks. The fear mongering no longer works on the people because consciousness is catching onto the illusions. No the earth is not going to blow up. What is crumbling are old systems that have been reinforcing the experience of powerlessness. God's plan is one of redemption and salvation. No this is not about some religious crusade, that is soooo old school. Let's move past that trap shall we. It is about the truth of YOU. Who are you really?
I promise you if you venture down the rabbit hole you will find out how glorious and powerful you really are. And yes, you will have to let go of many limiting beliefs to realize your true potential and venture into the unknown. Luckily for you, there are many thousands of trailblazers that have gone ahead and progressed into the 5D existence, which is one of PEACE, UNITY, HARMONY, WISDOM, MIRACLES and LOVE.
Here's is God's plan for heaven on earth, or what we awakened ones call 5D existence:
Like the 100th monkey scenario, a core, yet small population (which can easily include YOU) wakes up to their true nature as spirit by connecting with their heart and opening WIDE enough to receive the Holy Spirit of transformation (unconditional love). Then start the journey of awakening in their own unique way, by shedding all the limiting mental constructs. Then more light will illuminate your mind and body which heals all mental and physical illness, which are really caused by all the trauma and drama that we hold onto unconsciously. We then become AWAKE in the holographic reality like the Buddha, like Jesus, and many other masters who have walked on earth to show The Way, The Truth and The Life. We glow with peace and compassion and extend unconditional love to all as peaceful warriors of light; we are wise as serpents (no one can fool us back to sleep) and harmless as doves (no one can fight against us because they feel our love and non-judgement which is like a balm to their souls).
We also receive Divine assistance in helping and healing others with our energy which now flows directly from Source/God. The flows is intense and strong because we no longer have limiting mental constructs that block the flow of LIFE energy into our minds and bodies. The pure love and bliss we feel changes us from the inside out. We no longer have angst or fear inside so our minds are clear and calm. We go from SURVIVAL mode to CREATIVE mode, like the very imaginative and fun Minecraft video game that millions love to play. And PLAY we shall because removing all the baggage from our system allows us the feel PURE and innocent as little children again. We will play and co-create a new earth. We play with energy, we co-create with energy, we heal with energy, we are NOW energy beings no longer limited to just the physical material expression of the 3D matrix. We create, we SHARE all resources generously, we no longer buy into the lack and fear mentalities of old earth. We facilitate the crumbling of old earth by our choices. Awakened ones are not hanging out at the mall buying stuff or outwardly consuming material things. Have you noticed the fall in the stock market especially with retail stocks, gas prices, airlines, hotels. The economy is changing, consumption is changing. Less is MORE NOW. Why be materialistic and consume stuff and compete with the Jones next store like our parents did when we can sit in meditation and receive incredible BLISS and inspiration for all our creative impulses that are simply genius and beyond anything the material world has to offer?
The wisdom of the soul will flow through with MORE and MORE insights, solutions, revelations that will uplift everyone in our lives and eventually our world! Oh yes, the pure genius the flows from spirit that will express itself has NEW inventions, and new ways to collaborating with others from the heart that will heal our world. It's all coming folks. Health and aging will also take quantum leaps. With more Divine energy in our mind and body, we will experience longer healthier lifespans that will not degenerate with age like the old 3D matrix of darkness and limited light. Our 5D children will be born with inherent wisdom and remember their spiritual nature. These children will become future leaders and visionaries that will bring forth peace and prosperity that we can not even begin to imagine. There is more than just hope for the future, we have made it past the 2012 milestone without blowing up the world. This new 5D energy is finally here and we have more than earned our place in the cosmos as an evolved species ready to take flight into the UNKNOWN.
You can join the party or stay asleep in the matrix and not feel or experience anything new. It's your free will choice what or how you want to create with your consciousness. We are all equally loved, equally worthy, equally gifted and endowed with God's limitless creative power no matter if we choose to experience it or reject it.
Isn't that a wonderful vision for humanity's future? All my blog posts are channeled from spirit, my soul's light. This is my highest TRUTH and Divine blessing to ALL.
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