Wednesday, July 10, 2019

We are what we think?

One of the reasons I didn’t want to get surgery, chemo and the invasive conventional cancer treatments was because I was fearful of the harm it would do to my body. For example one serious complication is Lymphedema which is a crippling swelling of the arm or leg due to build up of lymph fluid that is block from drainage because lymph nodes are damaged or missing.

Well guess what I’m officially the only person I know who has Lymphedema without having any conventional cancer treatment! A few days ago I started getting swelling and pain in my left arm and it got worse after I flew to Vegas this week.  The arm swelled bigger! Then I stupidly decided to check my blood pressure (which was unusually low) on that left arm and it hurt as the cuff squeezed. After that my arm swelled even more! So I frantically Internet searched and diagnosed my condition which initially brought relief because I knew what was happening to my body. Then it sunk in that I have Lymphedema which is what I wanted to avoid by not getting cancer treatment!

I was frantic and scared. My brave side gave way to a whimpering little mouse. Will the rest of my likely short life be in agony dragging around a useless large left arm? But after a good long meditation during which tears flowed and self love came up to greet self doubt in loving embrace I slowly came to realize the potential gift of this experience. Perhaps the universe reflects our fear to us as an experience so we can grow in self love? Maybe karma (this cosmic mirroring) is not something to try to avoid. Maybe if we just allow the universe to teach us by embracing what is present in the moment to feel and experience we can find what we are truly seeking. Completion. This peace. I feel it as a current in the
unified field of energy that is us and is everything.


Our thoughts came from this field and creates our reality. Good or bad we are ever constantly experiencing our thoughts. Just be still and meditate and these deep insights come and I don’t feel so powerless. I see that there is connection in all things. We are part of something vast. Tap into this field and feel the peace underlying the reality being experienced. That is unconditional love. I’m at peace with death, cancer, Lymphedema, or the next thought that enters my vibrational pallet. There is joy in being present with life and not judging what manifests for my eternal musings. Much love to you all!

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