Making Peace with Cancer

The biggest challenge for anyone going through the cancer journey, or any difficult chronic illness is coping with fear, self doubt, and confusion.  Even with my miraculous experience of remission and spiritual awakening I AM still in a human body just like everyone else.  I will die just like everyone else, and there is no guarantee that I won't die of cancer.  I have to rely on faith that the reality that I experience, though quite mysterious, is life affirming even if the eventual result is death.  I trust that there is a overall guiding force in life that leads us benevolently towards hope and the end of suffering.  I choose to move forward and not stay in fear because deep down I know that as long as I am breathing, life is worth it.  My life matters (your life matters) and how I face my eventual death matters.  I choose to not let fear and doubt control me and hold me back from really living in joy.  I choose to seek a better way of being that brings about more peace.  This journey of finding inner peace is not only the purpose of life, but allows me to fully be alive while there is breath in me.  This makes me a warrior of light despite dark circumstances.

I resolve to transcend my fears, self doubt, and confusion in order to make peace with cancer.  I can have compassion for my human condition, but I can also transcend it by allowing compassion to take me deeper into my own heart.  Due to my spiritual awakening, I have both a human perspective and also a higher perspective at the same time.  This higher perspective is what I call my connection to spirit, or my I AM presence within.  It is the source of my comfort, wisdom, and personal strength to not only endure but also free myself from these human limitations.

There is a spark of the Creator (God/Source) in all human hearts.  It is the source of all life. This spark can be cultivated from a spark into a burning flame that dissolves fear and doubt.  It is beyond the human mind which seeks to rationalize and make sense of life but can only fall short of the Truth of who we really are.  This is the unconditional love of the One in all of us.  The truth is we are eternal.  We are spirit.  We can experience ourselves as formless limitless spirit when we die and leave our bodies, in dream state, or when we awaken to our true nature. We are individualized extensions of this source energy that expresses itself through us, as us.  Why is there cancer and suffering in our world if we are really God?  The short answer is "FREE WILL".  It is the ultimate act of unconditional love from the Creator.  To trust it's creations (us) so much that it allows any and all actions, thoughts, emotions, and outcomes to occur based on free will choices that we make while we experience life.

Since we are all part of Creation, we all contribute to our experiences of reality both individually and collectively.  All is One.  All is connected via the energy of the Creator.  The energy of Creator (unconditional love) holds together the light particles (photons within atoms that make up the cells of our bodies).  This energy was originally created with pure intention from the Creator as sparks of itself spin off into space to create our world and our bodies.  We are born into the world of form to experience ourselves so the Creator, which is formless and limitless, can experience it's own love reflected back to it as a compartmentalized form.  This form or body that we are in is limited (it has an expiration date called death).  This spirit of God (Creator) is the formless part of us, the Holy Spirit, that holds the body together until it expires.  It doesn't matter whether we believe in the Creator or not.  The unconditional love that holds our bodies together does not judge how we live our lives or what our beliefs are.  Everything is energy from the Creator, even our thoughts and emotions are energy.  This energy is Quantum.  It means that it is beyond space and time.  Beyond the human understanding.  Luckily we are not just human.  We have consciousness and we are self-aware.

There is a concept in Quantum physics called entanglement which is a non-local (beyond space and time) behavior of the energy particles that make up the appearance of matter.  Believe it or not, science has already proven that our bodies and our world are not made of concrete matter, but rather moving and vibrating light particles.  This is fact.  But most humans can not wrap our heads around what it means in our daily lives.  Another scientific discovery is that human consciousness affects the matter (particles of light).  What we observe and expect to see or experience we can alter the behavior of these particles of light that create our bodies and our world.  In short, this means our thoughts, beliefs, and emotions affect our bodies and our world.

If we have a belief that cancer is bad and that it will eventually kills us, then that is the probable reality or experience that we create.  If we believe that cancer is just one way the body communicates or reacts to it's environment then we open ourselves up to different possibilities.  I am of course, over simplifying things.  I'm using linear words which fall short of really describing the vast majesty and complexity of Creation.  But we have to start somewhere if we are to evolve our consciousness beyond existing limiting beliefs and become the powerful self-realized beings that we are all destined to be one day.  Believe me, there is a grand plan for humans.  We have not even begun to tap into our potential.  We are starting to put the pieces together and even though "free will" has allowed us to adopt belief systems that has created systemic suffering, it has also allowed us to learn and transcend suffering by developing compassion and a greater awareness of ourselves as being MORE than our bodies.

Where am I going with this and what does it have to do with making peace with cancer?  As I stated above, our bodies were created by the Creator with pure intention of limitless potentially.  As precious new creations, we start from square one and we learn and evolve using our own "free will" choices.  Even though our bodies expire, we live many life times.  Some people do not believe in re-incarnation so this won't make sense.  Remember, if you don't breakthrough limiting belief structures, you limit yourself to experience the same reality.  If you open up your heart and mind to the potential of NEW experiences like miraculous healing, then you will create a window of opportunity for the spiritual realm to work through you and help you find the inner peace (and healing) that is your birth right as a part of Creator endowed with the power of transcendence!

So the eternal part of you, or your soul, is what is truly real.  The body is temporary.  The soul journeys through many life times to experience transcendence and eventually transcends all human limitations by gradual energy shifts that expands it's consciousness.  One such limitation is illness like cancer.  Eventually we evolve away from the lower human survival (identification with only the body) mind to a way of being that is more soulful and life affirming.  The journey of the soul is heroic.  We all experience so many difficulties in human life from illness, to losing loved ones, to poverty, relationship issues, abuse, violence, war and all sorts of atrocities.  The traumas we experience bring on fear, anger, sadness, despair.  We don't understand why humans hurt each other when there is so much potential for love in our hearts.

It is the lower human mind of survival which causes most of the "kill or be killed", "survival of the fittest", "winner takes all", "blaming and finger pointing", victim/perpetrator" sort of mentality.  This mentality of separation, the us versus them attitude, that has created all the problems we face including cancer.  Why?  Because deep down we know that there is something very out of balanced in how humanity has been existing.  Our free will choices have boxed our bodies and our environment into a limited, toxic, and dysfunctional existence and the ONLY way out is a Quantum Leap towards love and compassion for self and others. 

The only way to make peace with cancer is to allow self love and compassion to be nurtured and cultivated in your life, all aspects of your life.  But first, focus this love and compassion that is already within your heart (the spark of spirit) towards yourself.  Yes!  You have to figure out how to be kinder to yourself.  Take a vacation from being a "cancer victim".  There is a spacious part of you that is beyond time and space.  You know this.  You feel this when you hold a new born infant, or watch a sunset over the ocean, or descend into blissful slumber each night.  You just know that you are alive in the moment, and your existence is a miracle.  Expand your self-awareness into this spacious part of you.  Then allow this SELF to embrace and hold the lower human self in loving communion.  Allow your beautiful human self to BE as you are with all your trauma and fears.  BE there for yourself.  Let yourself boldly and honestly witness the tension within that created the cancer.  Allow yourself to feel and acknowledge any rage or anger towards God, the world, your parents, or whoever for the feelings of despair your feel because of all the hurt your human has gone through without knowing why a benevolent Creator would allow such things.

All the shame, guilt, and feelings of inadequacy you feel from the conflicting messages in relationships and society that you are somehow just not good enough, therefore you are not deserving of truly fulfilling love, unconditional love.  There is always something that has to be corrected or fixed or earned before you can feel whole and complete.  Each time such limiting beliefs are reinforced by the faults and actions of yourself or others, you become more and more limited, eventually suffocating in a mental box you can not seem to escape.  Can you start to see how your life force energy has been slowly drained from your life by falling deeper into darkness?  Do you see how the negative spiral of self defeating thoughts, actions, and behaviors can do harm to your body?  The body is a reflection of your current mental and emotional outlook on life.  The human mind will try to wiggle out of this sort of self reflection and come out with many arguments to steer you away from looking deep within.  Take heart and keep going and expand your awareness each time your human mind wants to resist, just allow the resistance to come up into awareness and love it.  Say to yourself "I AM big enough and spacious enough to hold myself lovingly through any inner tension."  This willingness to surrender to the present moment will bring about peace as your human self starts letting go of the trauma once it sees that there is a loving presence within allowing it to finally express yourself fully.  Your energy will flow more freely.  Your body will start to heal with each release.  It's a process. Don't give up.  You are worth it.

There is a way out.  It is one choice at a time.  This practice of allowing yourself to BE as you are without judgement will create the breathing room your body needs to heal.  Trust that you can transcend the darkness within by shining your light on it.  The fear, anger, confusion will surface one by one, layer by layer as you journey forward and beyond.  The spacious awareness part of you will expand in depth and duration as you become more heart centered and less focused on the rational human mind.  Eventually the mind will become more peaceful because it now knows you are awake at the wheel and steering yourself out of the dark and back into the light of your soul.