Being victorious while experiencing defeat

The universe did it to me AGAIN yesterday.  It threw me for a loop during the Seahawks game.  My super bowl wish for the Seahawks to play against the Ravens was dashed as they lost against Dallas 22-24.  Did the universe fail me?  No, it completely changed me from the inside out with such a profound and scintillating energy experience of pure BLISS like I have never experienced before.  And based on my story of awakening I was blown away that I can feel even more bliss during the Seahawks game than I did beforehand.  While watching the game, no matter what happened or what thoughts came through my mind, I felt vibrating energy so delightful, so blissful, flowing all over me.  I hardly even paid attention to the game.  My ego self still wanted the Seahawks to win and still wanted to co-create the outcome with the universe.  But my inner experience of bliss was a complete disconnect from 3D reality.  It was a "beyond this world" reality that was more real and more desirable to me than anything or any outcome outside of me.  I have no words to describe it and I just floated in the glory of my I AM presence, a huge grin on my face, completely relaxed and enveloped by unconditional LOVE as pure energy.  Every cell in my body was lit up with vibrating energy and I could feel them, trillions of cells, alive with joy.  All pain, sores, discomfort of any kind dissolved completely.  I was perfection. The episode lasted over 2 hours, the whole game. 

My intuitive feel or the insights I received from this beautiful mystical experience was "no matter what the ego thinks should happen or wants to happen in life, it has no idea what life can really be like."  The flow of Divine love is far greater than any victory or claim that the limited human mind can think of to make it feel happy, validated, accepted or loved.   This experience was not a disappointment from the universe.  It was a GIFT from the universe to show me that I was immeasurably loved no matter what is happening outside of me.  I did not have to manifest football game outcomes to prove that I was worthy or powerful.  I already AM that which is LOVE.  If I let go of any past notions or concepts of how I need to be or what I need to do, I can just allow this energy to flow through me.

The process of enlightenment to me has been experiencing myself anew in each moment, and it's completely unpredictable, powerful, mind blowing and yet so elusively subjective.  I'm no longer the hamster wheel repeating the same experiences day after day.  My thoughts and feelings about myself and the future have transformed.  I'm uber optimistic and full of awe and excitement. For me each day is a venture into the unknown.  There is no tangible way to grab it and put it in a box, a blog, a book and disseminate it, though it's not stopping me from writing this post because sharing from the heart is how we heal ourselves and our world.  It's an act of service.  We put ourselves out there and in our vulnerability and honesty we connect hearts and transcend separation.

I'm so far up the spiral of ascension that it's new territory all the time.  So there is no past experience that I can draw on and cling to.  It is the ultimate surrender to "what is" in the moment.  Enlightenment is really feeling Divine energy both within and without.  The human mind then integrates the experiences of energy in a way that allows it to expand it's current understanding and expectation of what life is about.  This understanding is not static, it flows, expands and evolves with each new expression of energy within my consciousness.   

Can it be that enlightenment is the transcendent experience that is not only sustainable, but more real to the mind and the body than the events being out pictured in our 3D reality?  Which is real?  Which experience do I give credence to?  I can talk about a football game outcome with someone else and "share" a common reality, but I can't really describe the intense bliss and ineffable peace of the vibrating energy flowing within me to anyone else in a way that would make it "real" for anyone but me.  It's a choice that only I can make.  But I am wise enough to know that what I choose to give credence to is what becomes my reality.  So of course, I choose the miraculous.  I choose to venture into the unknown and surrender to love.  I call it forth with all my being.  I know that we are all One and connected.  My choice affects ALL.  May the peace of God be with you!